My One Great Love

Seven

Jennie's POV:

Ten years ago was the first traumatic experience I've ever tasted, one of the most painful event in my life. I was left hanging by the person I loved the most.

Lalisa Manoban.

She wasn't just part of my life, she was my world. I loved her more than anything. I never imagine myself with anyone else. But when she left, everything collapsed just like how my world crumbled. Then I lost myself.

Name all the words that describe brokenness.

But then, I'll be forever grateful to my family and friends who helped and pulled me up during those moments when I was battling against my chaotic mind. When I thought my heart couldn't take all the pain she had caused me.

Last year it happened again. The pain, which was the worst of all. Losing my entire family. When someone called me in the middle of night with a trembling voice, I knew something worst had happened and when that person told me the news about my family. My world stopped revolving. I couldn't believed at first, I thought I was just dreaming. I slapped myself several times. Trying to wake myself in that nightmare. But then, it was all part of my reality, my fate to never be genuinely happy.

That moment, I was on the verge of losing my mind. I was ready to give up. But then a few minutes of crying and grieving, the one who told me the news, called back. He told Ella miraculously survived the accident with just some minor injuries. They found her unconscious. My thoughts of giving up washed away immediately. Ella became my strength to endure all the heartaches.

Ella is so precious, she didn't deserve to experience this kind of pain at a young age, but maybe this is just how unfair life is.

In order for her to ease the pain I decided to go back here. She needs to stay in this town, so I have no choice but to give up my career in Seoul as a professor for the mean time. I need to focus for the both of us now. This is her home, where her friends are, which helps to make her feel that she's not alone. Just like how my friends are here for me.

And again, while on the process of healing another turn of events happened.

I know that one day it will come, where I will see her again. I hated her for such a long time. I kept asking myself the reasons why.

I still don't know what and how I would feel until Rosé told me the news last night.

I know that no matter how much I don't want to see her, this little town of ours will surely and not impossible to happen.

Since it's Saturday, Ella and I decided to go to the mall. When we were on our way home, we were supposedly just passed through the cemetery as it is located alongside of the road but she suggested to stop and visit our family, I told her that we should buy flowers first, but she told me not to, as she will pick some wildflowers on the verges. I agreed in defeat.

When we got out of the car Ella told me to go first and she ran as fast as she could to find flowers. While I was walking alone, my phone started ringing inside my bag. I shove my hand and searched for my phone, but I had a hard time reaching for it so I stopped from walking to find my phone when suddenly, a tall person accidentally bumped on me. My bag dropped and I hissed as I feel the pain on my forehead.

What a wonderful day.

I sarcastically said in my head. She bent down and got my bag. I was almost fuming but when I looked down at the person. I froze and lost all my senses. I felt the world stopped as she stood right in front of me.

We were both astounded. I managed to study Lisa's feature. She was wearing a black jeans, a black converse and a white plain shirt. Her body looks firmer than when we were young. And her doe eyes. She looked like she cried moments ago. It was red and her nose too, like she scratched it hundred times. She definitely cried.

She told me the reason why she was there. I couldn't believe though, and of all the time and places why did we have to meet that way? It was awkward. But at some point I was glad to know that she visited my family. She even met Ella.

Talking to her with just a few minutes felt like forever. I wanted to runaway, to disappear from her sight but no. I can't let her affect me, I can't let the past affect me today. 

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A few hours later of that awkward slash unexpected moment, I can't help myself but think of the possibilities that, it was just the start of more encounters that I'm going to face with her.

But anyway, what we had was already done. It's fine. I'm fine now.

The beeping sound of my phone on the table wakes me from my deep thoughts. I blink for a few times then get up from the sofa to reach and check who's calling.

Jisoo Kim

"Hello Jisoo?" I worriedly ask. It's unusual for Jisoo to call me, unless it's very important.

"Hey Jen, are you okay? I called you an hour ago but you didn't pick up."

Right, Jisoo was the reason why I and Lisa accidentally bumped to each other. Should I blame her now?

"Well yeah, and sorry I forgot to call you back. I was.." should I tell her? No. "I was with Ella and didn't noticed when you called. Is there any problem? Is Austin fine? Or Chaeng? Oh my God." I throw her questions and now I'm panicking.

"No, no. It's okay. And don't worry they're fine Jen." She paused "I'm just gonna ask if Austin can stay at your house later? Rosé has a duty tonight at the hospital and I'm going out with.. uhmm.. L-li." I can hear her hesitating so..

"Lisa." I finished her sentence with a calm tone. "Yeah no problem, I'll tell Ella, for sure she'll be glad that Austin will be here later." I say happily.

"Oh thank you Jen." she sigh "I'll drop him off at seven. Is it fine?" Jisoo ask.

"No worries Jisoo."

"By the way, I'll pick him up probably at eleven if that's okay? Don't worry I won't drink that much so it's safe." She blabber as fast as she can.

I think first but seconds later I gave in "Okay Jisoo, but if you can't, he can stay for the night." I insist.

"Thank you so much Jen." She sigh in relief.

Then we ended the call.

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