Her Sex God Boyfriend [FIN]

Her Sex God Boyfriend [17]

Lahat ng saya ko kanina ay napalitan ng lungkot at poot. Ang buong akala ko ay naghiwalay na silang dalawa. Pero sa nakikita ko ngayon sobrang malapit pa pala sila sa isa't isa.

There was once a time when I hated Mae the most. Yes she's good to me nung high school pa kami that's why I've told her all my secrets at kasali na doon ang lihim kong pagtingin kay Joseph.

My eyes had always been with him. Alam kong may balat siya sa may kaliwang balikat. Alam kong paborito niyang ulam ay adobo. I also know that he had always loved wearing beanies. That's why I made one for him. Knowing na malapit si Mae sa lahat ng kaklase naming lalaki, I trusted her. I trusted her to give it to him.

But what caught me by surprise ay ang pagpapanggap niyang siya ang gumawa nito. Day by day napapansin kong mas nagiging malapit sila sa isa't isa and God knows how painful that is, na araw araw ko silang nakikitang magkasama at nagkakatuwaan.

I've always been scrutinized thinking of the what ifs. Paano kung ako na ang nag-abot? What if I told him first about my feelings? What if I didn't tell Mae about Joseph? Would it turn out the other way around? Would he end up with me and not Mae?

But still, I loved my bestfriend. Yes, Loved. Past tense, dahil hindi ko na nakikita sa kanya ang Mae na nakilala ko dati. Ang mabait at mahinhing si Mae. Ang mahiyain at laging nagbubuild up ng confidence ko. Coz now, she's acting like a real bitch. I forgave her kahit na hindi siya humingi ng tawad, kahit na hindi man lang niya sinabi na nagkakamabutihan sila. Heck ni hindi niya inopen up yung pag-angkin niya sa ginawa kong beanie at kay Joseph. She resumed with her life like she haven't done anything that would totally wreck our relationship as bestfriends.

I tried to forget about Joseph, about them and I was thankful enough that Joseph doesn't cross my mind anymore. Pero ngayong nakikita ko ulit silang magkasama ay nagbabalik na ulit ang inis ko and to top it all, I'm really hating myself right now. Dahil kung hindi ako nagpakatanga at martir noon, Joseph might have ended up with me and not her!

"You shouldn't really glare like that. It's ruining your pretty eyes." Para akong nagising sa isang masamang panaginip at hinanap agad ng mga mata ko si Fidus pero nagbuntong hininga lang siya. Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at ang tangi kong nagawa ay magtanong.

"Bakit?"

It makes your lips so kissable
And your kiss unmissable
Your fingertips so touchable
And your eyes irresistible.

"Do you still love him?" Hindi ako sumagot and he maneuvered us so that I wasn't facing Joseph anymore. "Do you want him?" Again I can't answer to him. Gusto ko pa ba si Joseph na mapasaakin? I don't know. If I'm gonna be asked four years ago, I'd totally say yes without hesitation.

I've tried to ask myself
Should I see someone else?
I wish I knew the answer.

"Baby, I already know the answer." he whispered at naramdaman ko na lang na humiwalay siya sa akin. He brushed his lips to mine and I closed my eyes. I felt a tear roll down my cheek pero pinunasan agad iyon ni Fidus. "Now, Alisha. Don't cry." he says softly.

But I know, if I go now, if I leave
Then I'm on my own tonight
I'll never know the answer.

Tuluyan na siyang lumayo sa akin at iginaya niya ako upang maglakad. Hindi ko alam kung anong pinaplano niya pero nakita ko na lang ang mga sarili naming nakatayo sa tabi nila Mae at Joseph. Mukha pa ngang nagulat si Mae at dun din ay napatigil din sila sa pagsayaw.

"May I?" Fidus asked for Mae's hand and the damned girl immediately took it. After then, Fidus turned to Joseph. Hindi maikakailang mas matangkad si Fidus kesa kay Joseph pero matatag pa rin ang tindig niya. "Dude, take Alisha's hand." he ordered. At hindi ko pa mamalayan ang ibig niyang sabihin doon kung hindi niya pa itinaas ang kamay ko at ibinigay kay Joseph.

Napakurap ako ng dalawang beses bago ko maramdaman ang ibang kamay na humawak sa kanan kong kamay. Tinitigan ko si Fidus pero ngumiti siya. "I want your happiness." sabi nito at hinila na palayo si Mae. I watched them go far and I could make of Mae's blushing stance.

Midnight doesn't last forever
Dark turns to light
Heartache flips my world around
I'm falling down, down, down,
That's why.
 
"Kumusta ka na?" naagaw ni Joseph ang aking atensyon kaya napatingin ako agad sa kanya.

"Ayos lang." binigyan ko siya ng tipid na ngiti at naramdaman ko na lang na ipatong niya ang kamay ko sa balikat niya habang nakahawak siya sa aking bewang.

"Ang galing ng ginawa nila dito no?" he tried to draw conversation pero hindi ko mapigilang isipin kung anong nangyayari kina Fidus ngayon. Baka mamaya nilalandi na siya ni Mae. Bakit niya to ginagawa? Am I not enough? Ano ngayon? Mas pinili niya si Mae kesa sa akin?

"Aisha, gumanda ka." tss. Mas magandang pakinggan kung nangagaling kay Fidus. He can pull it better. Tapos iismid pa yan at biglang magiging retarded ang puso ko dahil nababaliw na ito sa kanya.

"Sa tingin ko kung ganyan lagi ang ayos mo, hindi imposibleng magustuhan kita." kahit na si Fidus yung iniisip ko ngayon ay naririnig ko rin naman ang lumalabas sa bibig nitong lalaking kasayaw ko. I don't feel anything special now that I'm dancing with him.

"Have you been an a-hole all this time?" I asked at mukhang naguluhan naman siya. "Dahil kung oo, grabe ang laki pala ng pagkakamali ko. I think I'm dancing with the wrong guy. Get off!" I snapped at iniwan ko siyang mag-isang nakatayo doon.

I find your lips so kissable
And your kiss unmissable
Your fingertips so touchable
And your eyes irresistible
(Irresistible)
Irresistible
(Irresistible)

Hinanap ko kung nasaan sila Fidus. Mukhang nilamon na rin sila ng iba pang nagsasayawan hanggang sa mapatigil ako sa pagtakbo. Napalingon ako at nakitang hinahalikan ni Mae si Fidus.

That Bitch!

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