Lili Roberts, a struggling-confused teenager, has to identify his sexual identity, in order to seek his true self upon going through the sexual crisis of reaching adulthood. And attending a catholic school brings much more tension. Will Lili be able...
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I must say, things get back to the way it was before. Everything's gone back to normal but I think there's a lot to say to what happened for the last few months and I guess it's pretty normal and simple. I was just with Allen and Anthony, cramming to our home works and quizzes and I still couldn't get away with them as they were pushing me to date somebody—either a girl or a boy and they put out all the preferences I had and presented to me all the best candidate for me but I don't think I can be on that situation again. Not that I can see at this moment.
Midterms had passed quickly, like flash came through the city and wipe-out us all out with his speed and we all came down to our final examinations. For the past few days, I have been focused on reviewing all of my notes for the finals and I thought it would be the best thing to take some time alone too. And being alone sometimes made me realize that there's something missing and when I try to figure it out, I always come back to Grant—in which we haven't talked to each other since I left his house.
And one thing to help myself not to bother thinking about Grant, I also spent my time within the Secret Society of Queers which officially has been recognized by the university. It is one of the pride we get when they didn't kick us out because creating a club that supports each other has good effects for every student—not just the members. After our movement, many young students joined us and they were just like me who were confused and some are afraid to come out because of the hatred they will get from everyone they care about.
Well, that's one of the main things about coming out—what people see you after knowing who you really are. If they're gonna change their perspectives towards you or they will remain to a mindset that it is normal. Being gay, lesbian, bisexual or trans is normal. No one should get the hate because our gender cannot be found on some gender options upon signing up for some online sites. Sometimes you just have to accept what happened because it is reality and reality hurts sometimes. Moving on is what we should impose because if we move on, we learn and when we learn, we know how to deal with things that will come on our way.
And about Grant? Just like what I said, we never talked since I left his house though we bound to see each other in the hallways of every building but never get to speak to each other once again. Some people in the secret club talks about it too. Why am I not going after Grant after all those days we have been together—that we cannot be separated at times and now it seems like we're strangers. But I just told them that Grant's busy and he needed to pass his subjects as he lost his spot for being one of the dean listers when he got sanctioned. And somehow, I felt guilty because if he did not come and join me at that time—he could've been still on the top. And maybe that's the reason why he was gone cold to me.
As we got out of the room after taking our last exam and the last day of our first semester. Allen and Anthony cheered me up because I thought that I did not do great upon answering all those questions and I'm having hesitations.
