Lili Roberts, a struggling-confused teenager, has to identify his sexual identity, in order to seek his true self upon going through the sexual crisis of reaching adulthood. And attending a catholic school brings much more tension. Will Lili be able...
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How do you define your sexuality? Gay. That was the result of an online quiz I took while I'm on the bus earlier. I was so sure that I'm getting the straight result but I don't know how this one comes up. I basically answer all the questions upon my preferences and I'm not leaning forward to getting this kind of result. Maybe there was just an error to the quiz and gave me the wrong result because I'm so sure—or not, that it shouldn't be the result I'm getting at.
"Lili, bakit hindi ka nagtataas ng kamay mo?" Takang tanong sa akin ni Allen.
I furrowed my brows as I questioned him with his question too, "bakit naman ako magtataas ng kamay?"
"Hindi ka pa tuli?" tanong ni Anthony.
My eyes widen with his question but almost an accusation regarding his tone. I shake my head abruptly to respond as I don't conform them with their derogatory remarks towards me. "Why would I raise my hand to know if I'm circumcised or not?"
Then my eyes landed when my female biology professor called my attention, "Mister Roberts," she started as all my block mate heads turn around to see me. "I think you're not participating in my class right now, do I need to know something?" She asked then I immediately shook my head as a response. I can feel my ears getting hot because of the attention I'm having. "Okay, by the way, I'm just asking if anyone was circumcised. Pero kung nahihiya ka naman magta—" and with that and before she could end her sentence, I raised my hand and heard little chuckles around me and saw Allen and Anthony trying not to laugh. "Thanks, Mister Roberts, please eyes on the board." She demanded.
I nodded but I bow my head for a little while trying not to consume the humiliation. And then I raise my head and my eyes landed on the whiteboard where my professor's lecture about male reproductive organs and because I don't want to cause another attention. And when I tried to focus on the discussion, when I think this subject isn't necessary for the course I'm taking—my mind flew somewhere.
Back on the bus earlier, I thought he already left and walk his way to the University but I was wrong. Even before the bus stops as we came nearer to the university, we stood up to walk into the front for it is easy for us to get out and when we did, I saw him sitting on the stepping platform. I stood behind him. Allen and Anthony notice him there too and they almost pushed me towards him and could fall and might've hurt him if my reflexes weren't that fast. I hold onto the handle and he looks back as he notices me from behind.
I bowed my head and apologizes, "I'm sorry..." and then he turned his head back until the bus stops and watched him stand and walk out and we follow him out.
After that, my friends keep telling what I said sorry to him when I didn't even do anything towards him. Napatanong din ako sa sarili ko no'n pero hinayaan ko na lang din. We wouldn't be able to see each other again anyway. Let's just save the embarrassment from that and forget all about it.
