Hidden Desires

Year 9 2001-2002: School Gates

3.15pm. Myah and I were on our way out of the school gates when I spotted HIM. My heart was skipping ferociously. Myah tugged at my coat and pinched my sides teasingly. She usually had her arm locked onto mine whenever we were walking to or from school. Looks wise, we were complete opposites. She was short. I was tall. She had huge, massive breasts. I had small ones. She was chubby. I was curvy. She was light skinned. I was dark skinned. She was beautiful. I wasn't. Personality wise, Myah Campbell was kind, friendly, approachable and always smiling. I, on the other hand, was always defensive, screw faced and not so kind with my words. It was a defence mechanism I had embraced and had to use to keep trouble away from me. However, I found that, that often made things worse. Ever since my arrival to that French lesson, Myah and I had become inseparable. Yes, we had other girls we hung around with at break times and lunch times, but our bond and vibe was something special. We would create codes whenever people were around us so that we could gossip in peace.

"Oooh girl. JS is over there!" Myah stated whilst pinching my ribs.

"Ouch! I know Myah. I CAN see him you know!" I replied rolling my eyes smiling.

I couldn't help but to smile whenever JS was around. But I always tried to keep it cool, calm and collected. Aside from Myah, no one, not even Samantha Miles, another girl part of our 'group' knew I had a huge crush on someone, let alone JS. Jaime Stewart. JS. Sierra Stewart. Had a nice ring to it. Ha! JS was standing by the school gates with his bestfriends Nicholas Collins and Dominic Grant. Nicolas has a crush on Myah, however she had no interest in him whatsoever.

"And there go your husband for life, NC," I continue pointing discreetly over at Nicolas.

"Eww, he's not my husband and you know it Sierra. You're such a bitch!" Myah whines at me as we both burst out into uncontrollable laughter.

"Hey Sierra. Where you heading to?" Jaime turned whilst we walked passed.

"Err...home! Duh! Where else would I be going?" I shot back sarcastically, instantly regretting being so mean.

His two side kicks, laughed at him and Myah and I joined them. Jaime let out a nervous laugh whilst scratching his hair. Hmmm..His hair. It was dark, curly on top and neatly shaven on the sides with a fresh design on the left side. He looked so good. Jaime was tall, big built with a milk chocolate complexion. Like a big brown teddy bear. Plus he gave the best hugs. His big brown eyes and long eyelashes were to die for. His thick eyebrows and stare were fixated on me but I was too busy gazing at his lips. Boy were they big. Juicy. His bottom lip was pink. I smiled as I watched him lick his lips nervously. He caught me staring at them. Damn.

"Ohhh shame yeah yeah. I knew that. Wait, what are my lips dry or something?" Jaime asked still licking his lips.

'Yup! Like usual!" Myah replied bursting into one of her embarrassing yet catchy laughs making the entire group laugh too and dragging me towards the exit of our school.

"Oooh that was a good one!" I told Myah highfiving her.

I could hear Nicolas Collins and Dominic Grant still laughing. But I knew he was watching my bum. I could feel his gaze on me. So I did what any girl would have done. And struck my stuff some more and gave him a show.