𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙤𝙮

Coming clean

We were back In club later in the day and Mercedes was singing a song that I'm pretty sure was meant for Sam cause he was tearing up and she was singing I Will Always Love You. He could've at least told me something happened between them. And she was even crying! Sam walked out and I chased after him. "Sam!" I shouted while he was almost half down the hall before turning around "Not now Jade!" He yelled in my face as I ran up to him. I jumped a little but I wasn't scared.

"So you were really just using me this whole time? Not even caring about my feelings?!"

"We were doing this for me not for you! Your feelings weren't involved Jay!"

"No, you don't get to call me that! And my feelings were definitely involved! I love you, Sam! Why do you think I was so good at pretending? Cause it was real! I've had a crush on you since the moment I saw you and you are so naïve to think for a second! That I don't have feelings for you! Everyone could tell even before our little fake dating stunt! That's why no one was surprised! But you are gonna cry over someone who doesn't even want you? When I have been here this whole entire time? I hate you Sam! Don't ever talk to me ever again!" I ran away passed the glee doors full knowing they heard everything but I just ran and I never wanted to look back.

At Sugar's Party I sat with Kurt and apparently David Karofsky has a crush on him and it wasn't Blaine sending him gifts all day, which kinda sucks. I looked over to Artie who also had no one and I walked up to him. "Hey Artie." I sighed and pulled up a chair next to him "Jay I'm sorry what happened earlier with you and Sam." He seemed to have genuine pity for me so I was fine with it. "It's fine and I know you wanted to take Sugar to her party but if you did then I wouldn't be able to do this." I kissed him impulsively not even thinking about it for a second! I didn't even know it was gonna happen. He pushed me away and looked shocked "Jade look. You're emotional and probably drinking wine coolers or something. So you really don't wanna kiss me." He turned around as The God Squad made it's way on stage. Seeing Sam made me wanna cry so I ran to the bathroom and Cried in a stall quietly. How could I be so stupid to think Sam would actually like me? He was only doing this to get Mercedes back. I Wipe my eyes and go back out there and back to Artie "Look Artie you don't like Sugar okay and you were willing to-" I get interrupted by Blaine and a smile grew on my face and I looked back down at Artie. "You are definitely right I didn't like her so Jade, Wanna dance?" "I thought you'd never ask!" I excitingly smiled. He pulled me into his lap and started to roll around and I just held on to him and laughed while half of the party sang love shack. Balloons fell down and this time Artie kissed me . "This doesn't have to be about feelings, okay?" He smiled "Artie I wouldn't waste my time on that! Truth is I kinda had a crush on you too but just more Sam and don't think you are second choice, okay?" We both laughed and enjoyed the rest of the night.

"That's it. I'm done. I'm leaving this classroom, and I'm gonna beat that Sebastian kid's ass!" Finn gets up in a rage cause a Photo shopped fake nude of him has been made by well Sebastian.

"Finn, Chill."

"No, I'm not going to chill. I'm done Chilling."

"The official show choir rule book states that "Any real or perceived threat of violence, Vandalism or humiliation will be met with a swift and unquestioned disqualification of the threatening parties team with extreme prejudice." It's right here. Page 72, bylaw 15, section six, article 44." Artie reads as Sam pushes him into the room. I tuned everyone out because I already have to much on my plate. The bell rang and Artie and I decided to hang out with each other during our free period. We hung out in the auditorium and Kurt and Blaine were there. Blaine was singing cough syrup which is probably one my favorite covers done by him so far. After he was down me and Artie clapped "That was Amazing!" We both shouted.

When Kurt told me the news immediately hugged him tightly. I was kinda in shock luckily he wasn't dead, but in bad condition. Kurt wanted to be with me the whole day so I went to the God Squad meeting with him. "Quinn, please." He said as we both stood in the door way "Sure, you had a baby when you were 16 and you had a bad dye job for two weeks, but seriously? The world never stopped loving you. And you're going to Yale. You have no idea what Karofsky was struggling with." I rubbed his back while Quinn responded. "The despair. The self-loathing." I looked into his eyes and saw he was heartbroken. David turned into his friend and we are both so proud of him but, the things people were saying; that's horrible karma.

After the meeting, I looked over to Sam and just walked out without saying a single word to him. I saw Artie and smiled and we both went our way but I looked back to Sam and he looked sad. We also had a glee meeting so we went to that but afterwards it was just me and Artie.

"You aren't using me right Jade?"

"No why would you think that?" 

"I just wanna make sure that this is real to you too." He looked up at me and a I just kissed him. "Also during the glee club meeting- why'd you look sad when Mr.Shue brung up suicide?"

"Because, because I almost killed myself once." I exhaled.

He stopped his wheels and looked up at me "Have you ever told anyone that?"

"No."

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