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NYDA Audition

This week was First Annual McKinley High Career Fair. Me, Sam, and Blaine are visiting New York this week for mine and Blaine's audition and something for Sam. He's been ignoring me for two weeks and Marley is still awkward about it and just waves at me. I'd say best month of my life! But that would be sarcastic and actually senior year has been shit to me so, Thank you! Thank you so much for that! I lost Sam! I got shot! A bucket of slushee fell on me and! I kissed Marley....

*flashback*

We kissed for a few minutes until she pulled away and shook her head. "No, no. Jake and I just broke up and you Sam kinda did too. So no." I didn't say anything whatsoever. All I did was walk away.

*flashback over*

So everything in life is ruined. When we got to the apartment I hugged Santana and then Kurt, then Rachel. Just like everyone else pretty much. Sam still ignoring me of course. The next day we all went to the diner where they all work at to eat some lunch. "So, did you guys like those historical sites I recommend?" Kurt asked sitting down next to Sam. (I sat next to Blaine) "Um, we checked out that deconstructed bathhouse on St. Mark's, where Tennessee Williams got in that fistfight with Tallulah BankHead." Blaine smiled.

"Oh yeah, that was awesome." Sam laughed.

"Uh, but it was mostly campus visits. I'm, NYU, Columbia."

"Why? You're going to NYDA."

"I-I need safety school, Kurt." I nodded in agreement and finished up my food. I zoned them out and just thought about Sammy.... I felt utterly devastated! I mean the love of my life is gone...

*Love of my Life starts to play*

Jade:
Love of my life, you've hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me, because you don't know
What it means to me

The diner was empty and it was just Sam and I. He stared at me and I immediately smiled.

Sam:
Love of my life, don't leave me
You've stolen my love, you now desert me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back (back)
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me

Jade and Sam:
Obrigado

You will remember
When this is blown over
Everything's all by the way
When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you (I still love you)
I still love you

We both got up in sync and started to dance with each other

Jade:
Oh, hurry back, hurry back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know what it means to me
Love of my life
Love of my life
Ooh, eh (alright)

*music fades*

I cried a little when he let go of me and sat back down. Suddenly everything went back to normal.

"I already said don't talk to me." Sam stated. I looked around in confusion to see I was standing in front of him as he was sitting down.

"What? What did i say?"

"You said! "I love you Sammy" Which! I said don't ever call me that again!" He put down some money on the table and walked out. Blaine looked at me and got quite. So did Kurt. So did everybody.... I felt everyone's eyes on me. I ran out of the place and started to cry. I decided to take a walk cause I couldn't face everybody; I mean... I don't need anybody! I don't need him. I want him! I walked into a library and just started to read. I bought one book and then headed home. I crashed onto the couch without saying a word to anyone.

The next Sam was having a photoshoot in the living room so, I left and went to my audition. "Jade Hummel!" Carmen Thibodeau Shouted. I made my way on to the stage in some random theater. I waved and smiled, she just looked back at her book and I could tell she was waiting for me. "I'm Jade Hummel and today I will be singing I Dreamed a dream."

*I Dreamed a Dream Starts to play*

Jade:
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time

Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in times gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed, that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream
I dreamed....

*music fades*

I took a deep breathe and smiled. "I took some notes, the breathe work; Amazing! And the part where you sung shame it's like I could feel the pain. Also, your Kurt's little sister right?"

"Yes, Ms. Thibodeau"

"I see that the singing runs in the family." She smiled "Blaine Anderson!" She shouted. I got off stage and sighed in relief. "Good luck." I whispered to Blaine as he made his way on stage.

I after Blaine's audition; which he killed. I went to the city for a bit and hung out. At least two hours later I came home to, Sam and Rachel dancing together and everyone singing. Seeing Sam with someone else hurt, and my suppose sister! And everyone looked happy. Like I get it but... don't they know I still love him. I walked in slowly and they all stopped and turned around. "Hi!" Kurt smiled. "Where have you been? You left after my audition." Blaine questioned.

"I left cause I needed some alone time. Also my flight is in a few and I already packed earlier so bye."

"Wait you have a separate flight?" Kurt made a weird face.

"No, this is about Sam. You don't like that he's moving on to annoying Berry, do you?" It felt like Santana read right into my soul.

"Yes it bugs me. But it's clearly it doesn't bug Sam. Also Ryder posted a picture with Marley! So! She's obviously not into me and I'm obviously not into her."

"Wait what?" I could tell that Sam didn't tell them about the kiss.

"Marley kissed me. I told Sam and know he thinks I'm lesbian and wanna have babies with her or something."

"You kissed her back!"

"As a reflex! I never would have kissed her! She was hurt so she did and yeah maybe I kept it a secret for little while but you act like I fucking had sex with her!!" Everyone got silent and slowly walked away, expect Sam.

"You know how I feel about kissing!"

"I would never do that! I'm not Quinn!"

"Well all I see is someone who hurt me, someone who I never thought would hurt me in the first place!"

"Fine Sam. Bye." I took my bag and got a taxi. I changed my flight to tonight. I couldn't stand one more minute sleeping in an apartment with someone who doesn't want anything to do with me.

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Don't worry they'll get back together soon, Ig I'm ribs now ✌︎

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