𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙤𝙮

Jessie's girl

I stayed the night at his house; most of the night crying and cuddling. "Sammy?" I looked around the room and he was gone but then the door opened and he came in with breakfast. "I don't know how to grieve this lost so when I woke up I just wanted to make breakfast for us." He smiled and handed me my plate and sat next to me "Sam... I don't know how to-" "I know baby, I know." He gave a smile again but this time sad; we both were scared and unsure on what to do next. School is literally today and Kurt called and said he's coming but Rachel won't even get out of bed. No one has told the glee club. It's my duty to deliver the bad news. When I walked into the choir room hand in hand with Sam and couldn't breathe. I felt my heart beating fast and my word was fading 'Jade are you okay?' I heated faintly but kinda clearly. "Finn..." I looked around the room and couldn't stop my self from tearing up. "Finn passed away last night. The only reason why I'm here cause I thought I could use a distraction but- I can't." Everyone's face went from happy to mournful.

Days passed and the funeral was, well it was like a funeral. Rachel came but left without saying a word to anybody and Mr.Shue wanted to have a little remembrance for Finn but only for the glee club. Everyone stayed a little longer for it. Mercedes dedicated a song to him that he sung to his baby, well thought it was is. I wanted to sing my favorite song he sung, Jessie's Girl. I got up in front of everybody and took a breather.

*Jessie's Girl starts playing in acoustic*

Jade:
Jessie is a friend, yeah
I know he's been a good friend of mine
But lately something's changed that ain't hard to define
Jessie's got himself a girl and I want to make her mine
And she's watching him with those eyes
And she's loving him with that body, I just know it
Yeah 'n' he's holding her in his arms late, late at night
You know
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman like that

Sam:
I play along with the charade
There doesn't seem to be a reason to change
You know, I feel so dirty when they start talking cute
I wanna tell her that I love her
But the point is probably moot
'Cause she's watching him with those eyes
And she's loving him with that body, I just know it
And he's holding her in his arms late, late at night
You know
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman like that
Like Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman
Where can I find a woman like that

Jade and Sam:
And I'm looking in the mirror all the time
Wondering what she don't see in me
I've been funny, I've been cool with the lines
Ain't that the way love supposed to be
Tell me, where can I find a woman like that
You know, I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I want Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman like that
Like Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I want, I want Jessie's girl

*music fades*

Everyone claps and I smile sadly, it's been weeks but, It still hurts. Kurt and I brought a tree for Finn but someone stole it. Who the hell would do that? Puck..... Puck is an angry individual, I can't imagine him grieving. We started packing Finn's room but it was hard to say what should stay and what should go; Kurt got to keep his jacket, My dad got the lamp, Carol got pictures and memories. I didn't know what I wanted;  so I kept his blanket. I love blankets and plus, it smells like him.

"Why do you blow bubbles when your stressed?" I looked over at Sam and frowned. "It calms me." I continued to blow bubbles to his ceiling but then stopped and broke down crying. He grabbed me and squeezed me tightly. "There was this one time, he saw me crying and he had this in his hand." I sat up and showed him the bubbles "He gave it to me cause he said "Bubbles tend to calm people" and he had- the most- cutest goofy smile. Since that day, every time I'm stressed I blow bubbles; there were even times when he would pour some more in so I wouldn't run out. Now, I don't wanna use it actually." He took the bottle and sighed "I'll tell you what, why don't I hold on to this and if there's ever a time you desperately need to blow them. You can." He smirked at the last part but quickly got serious again. "I'm so glad I have you in my life."

"Okay, I know that Finn has his doubts about god, but I am convinced that squishyteets is up in heaven right now, plopped down next to his new best friend Fat Elvis, helping themselves to a picnic of baby back ribs smothered in butterscotch pudding and tater tot grease, so, this for you Hudson." Santana started singing If I die Young. I looked at Sam and gripped his hand tightly. I was so lucky to have him by my side during this time. In the middle of the song Santana started to break down crying, and when people went to go comfort her she ran out screaming. The day ended and I went to Sam's again. I have been staying at his place because I can't face the reality of my own home. His sister and brother are a great distraction so. Dinner is nice, not like at home. Where no one makes dinner, dad just says to order something and Kurt is only visiting. I just really feel like I don't wanna be stuck.

Rachel arrived the next day and sang Make you Feel My Love, It was amazing as always. I hugged and this time I got to talk to her. Apparently she's been in bed barely moving or sleeping, I know she get out this funk soon; this is just the first step.

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