Imperfections

Who has the answer?

18-12-2014
I tried talking to people, get them to understand, and make them make the decisions for me, but truth be told, how often do you really follow someone else's advice? Usually you have your own hidden opinion. And excuse everyone else with "you don't know the whole story" but maybe they got something, maybe the whole story isn't needed to make some of these decisions, maybe the things you tell them are the most in important, and what the decision really should be based on?

Well this was a sidetrack, point is I tried getting helped, asking for other peoples opinions, but everyone has a different one, and then which one is the right one to follow? You never know, that's why decisions should be made by yourself only, and involving others in you business is not always a good idea, and in the majority of the cases ends up fucking your mind up, and slow the process.

I've been struggling with this one stupid decision for months now. Keep beating myself of for putting myself in this hopeless situation. Somehow I ended up falling in love with two guys, but how? Is it even possible, did I even really love the first one, or was it shallow, how do I know a third on won't appear? I guess I won't know till it happens. Just the unknown is a but difficult for me, I'm scared of ending up with a bunch of regrets in my life. Isn't that what everyone wants? A perfect life with no regrets. But already now, it's filled with regrets, and decisions I wish I had thought more about, and chose otherwise. But I guess that's just life.

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So this have become sorta a diary, essay reflection thing, all though important to know people, this is all fiction, meaning this isn't my own experiences, this is a made up person. Thank you.