After We Clashed

Prologue

"I can't yet place it"
I didn't know what to do but hate myself but I knew This Past of mine must not Affect the Future.

I made a mistake I'll never be okay with cause I can't forget it.
No one knows my secret except the reason behind it.

How can I look And Say I'm pure when I have been made to believe I'm nothing but a whore,sighing I stand in front of the Mirror in my room.

Looking into it I'm not sure I could recognize the girl staring back at me.
I messed up big time and there must be a solution to it.
What will happen to me now?

Will I trust myself enough to have friends
I'll never be free with friends because I'll never tell any of that dark past to anybody
His last words my life's worst Fear!!

I need to sleep before momma comes in and complain as usual.Parents!!!
I got into bed after applying my night Routine of Cleanser and fast clear,pimples problems part of a teenage life.

As I closed my eyes shortly after that same scene,same dream exactly what happened, it kept hunting me every time I thought of it,I'm drawn into a word of oblivion.
Yes it happened recently,but I know it left an everlasting scar.

It kept coming mercilessly looming and reminding me I still had to shake it off
I tried to fight back the dream
But slowly as it came I got drowned it in....

I had gone to visit him because he didn't attend church and he lives few houses from mine.
Had i know i would have gone with a friend or never tried or thought of going.
Everything seemed normal and friendly until.

Stay with me his rapsy voice still pulled me in..
How do I stay when my mom is expecting me to be back soon and I just came to check on you.....
Shuush Don't you understand he cut me short trying to hold me hands.
I pulled away and stretched far to the edge of the bed. Entering the room with him wasn't such a good idea i mentally slapped myself .

My subconscious mocked me "foolish Girl,Smart but more foolish.
I wanted to cry because that's what I do best in times of Trouble,hurt and sadness but this guy was scaring life out of me.

Kate I want you
You're now a big girl dont think you're small .
I'll do Everything You want I promise just allow me, don't pretend I'm sure you have started doing it with those little guys, let me taste you too and make you feel like a woman i will even take very good care of you.

He kept on trying to touch me and have his way,I realized I didn't know this man after all he just came to town but was very jovial and free with us,even joined my mom sometimes to sort out cases.

Now I knew why he came close to my family.
I was horrified .. No I shouted...get away from me but he kept coming closer and closer .

I noticed fear Gave him courage so I put on a mask and started laughing as if I was not affected or I'm not innocent as this maniac put it but this happened after he tried to get a finger under my pants.I felt so dirty still
I just couldn't let him so I started laughing
I laughed and said several more things and everything became heated........

Thankfully he left me.
My change of demeanor changed his mind
But he said something that scared hell out of me.
"I'm coming back for you kate,you're not as clean as you said or think and you will be off good use later.
You can't hide from me he said smiling dangerously....

I woke up sweating it was just 1am
I wiped my tears and just as i was Shaking
I looked up not sure if I'll continue like that
I can't...........

What will Stop this or who will stop this ..

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