After We Clashed

Chapter 4.

Bridget's POV

I stood at the balcony of my Parents house,it morning and this is the first thing I wanted to do.

Looking ahead i could see the street buzzling with lots of activities.
Vehicles were here and there going their ways and serving the owner's faithfully.

I compared the activities to my life which has been like a roller coaster for me.
Today,the perfect Monday I decided to think about my future....

"What a nice way to start a day",I said out loud holding the railings of the sophisticated outer compartment.

Yesterday I finally clocked sixteen and my parents as usual threw a big birthday party in my honor,I won't say it was for me as they invited most of their business partners inorder to hold a get together of some sort but who cares!

I had a great sixteen birthday, it was as if my parents were not around thanks to the large house.

I wish so many things in my life could have been different but mostly i wished he could see me now.

My shade! I said in confidence although to myself.
I'm now a big girl,more matured and sensible than before.

Will he like me for the difference?
I doubt that... He left, in better words I chased him with my actions all because I was foolish.

He left when I did needed him the most but it was my mistake.
I'll never admit that to anyone not even him!

My ego will not allow it.
I knew he had not come to stay even if he wanted to,it was not possible maybe I thought so...

It's all in my head.
He was the perfect guy who had time for me more than my parents ever could.
Both my mom and dad,they are always busy with trips all around the world..

According to the nature of the Family business and They will say since I'm their only child I'll take up the business.

I chuckled remembering their expressions when they remind me of it.
Family business or not I'll never let my life go with their flow.

They are always everywhere except the house infant My parents are responsible for my attitude towards life.

I'm always left alone with Maids and Nana.
Yesterday didn't even give them a reason to stay with me,immediately after they took off to another trip to meet a multi billionaire or so,it was as if my own parents were invited to my birthday.
What an irony!

I'm used to it,to them not being there for me except for money wise off course..
I gulbed down my water and sat on the fancy sofa,i threw my phone away in frustration,one of the ways I waste their money.

My thoughts went back to shade.
After I started misbehaving and made it clear that I wanted nothing to do with him.He was still showing up as kind and loving as he was.

That accident finally made him go away,in guilt I stayed away from him,I transferred to another school just to leave the school for him and to stay away from him.
It was the only thing i could do to free myself i just couldn't bear seeing him everyday, I became a horror to the only guy that ever cared for me and accepted my behaviors.

Why didn't he stick to me, I might have changed for him.
Yes its so pathetic of me to ask that but his absence made me realize that I truly loved him, he was the first to capture my young heart but I messed up.

That incidence came to me again.....
I sank deeper into the comfy sofa for warmth........

He had tried to run away from me because i was forcing myself on him but he wasn't ready or interested,we were by the road side after an argument and I decided to pull him inside but he ran trying to get to the order side of the road seemed he had something urgent to take care off and i was insisting but then it happened.....

Two cars coming from wrong directions collided with him almost crushing daylight out of him.
The collision brought a very screeing noise that must have led him to shock.

I also screamed out to him thinking he had died,it was so scary but luckily it was as if It was written that wasn't his time.

A wedge had saved him,i blamed myself every single day and it was that guilt that led me to let him be.

Money had confused me,I cheated on him,abused his self esteem,I used his love against him and hurt his fragile heart.
Why I asked myself every single day...

I am a spoilt brat with no real parent's love,care and attention,after he left me I knew he was the only one that gave me all that without realizing.i thought money could solve everything which was my biggest mistake.

It was just one year ago.Now I wanted my shady back.
I'll ask for forgiveness.
Then I could correct the past and make both of us happy.Will he forgive me?

Will he accept me?Is he the same guy I loved but all my questions will be answered when i ........

Bridge! Nanny idna said coming into my room.
"Good morning Nana"I replied her with the most genuine smile.
Nana as I called her is my most beloved maid who I consider a mother,she has been taking care of my immediate needs from childhood.

Now she's a little more older but I'll never allow my Parents relive her of her duties.
Aren't you going to school my child she asked stroking my hair something I like about her.

No Nana.....i'm so tired from Yesterday's party so I'll skip.
Okay dear I'll get you breakfast, do you need any other thing?

No and thank you I said in a dismissing tone.
As she left I looked up into the clear sky and with determination I said loudly..

I'm coming for you shade.
Me or no one else.....