Playing with fire

Where'res my mamas

-same time-

Me: fuck

I just stood there in shook, what the fuck am I supposed to do Ma and Pa are going to friking disown me, Noahs going to kill me, my friends are going to judge and especially Mar this affects him the most he's probably gonna hate me, I stand up from the bathroom floor and look at myself in the mirror im a mess

Me: you really did it this time Madison

I decide to wash my face and change into a big white oversized t-shirt I brush my hair and sit in my bed with my knees being embraced by my arms as I cry silent tears and stare at the storm

Me: what am I going to do

Just as I'm thinking I get a call from Mar I grab my phone and stare at it, I can't pick it up, I promised him, he's been through enough with me. I can't see Mar or talk to him not until I'm ready to tell him because I know the second I see him and not tell him it's over he'll hate me either way but im not ready for any of this and I sure as hell know he's not either. I then hear someone walk up the stairs and I bolt back to the washroom and put the stupid stick in the drawer and head back in bed and facing towards the window, I then hear my door creak open.

Pa: night Mija love you

And that's when I knew I couldn't tell anyone

-morning-

I don't plan on doing anything or going anywhere the fewer people see me the less they can realize anything, this is so fucked. I go in my closet and wear a pair of grey sweats and a random oversized t-shirt. I spent the majority of the day in bed and the only time I left was to use the washroom, I watched random shit but I spent almost all my time just sitting and staring at my wall, I'm stuck and it sucks. It's about 2:00 am in the morning and I haven't eaten all day. I could care less but I guess it's not really only about me this time. I walk downstairs to see Noah on the couch. I walk by him and head in the kitchen.

Noah: where have you been

Me: in my room

I mumble

Noah: all day?

Me: yeah pre much

I say pulling out some cereal

Noah: its march break aren't you gonna go get drunk n smoke some weed

Me: I'm not you

Noah: chill I was joking

Me: I'm just gonna eat my cereal and you can go back to doing whatever you're doing

Noah: you wanna watch a movie

Me: why not

I sigh, I grab my cereal and head to the couch

Noah: wadda you wanna watch

He says scrolling through Netflix

Me: I don't really care

I say picking through my cereal which I do not wanna eat

Noah: Are you ok

Me: I wish everyone would stop asking that

I sigh

Noah: well you're a bad liar

Me: thanks

I say giving him a fake smile

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The movie eventually finishes and of course Noah falls asleep, he has a room so why doesn't he use it. I grab the blanket, put it over him and head upstairs. I decide to walk in by Ma n Pa I can't see anything cause it's dark but I know they're there

Me: im sorry

I whispered and head to my room

-morning-

Mars POV

I haven't seen Mads in a couple of days. She doesn't answer any calls or messages nobody has heard from her or seen her...

Where'res my mamas

Mads Pov

Every day is starting to look the same. being sick, crying not crying who knows at this point, I'm just constantly sad and it sucks. The last time I was like this was shitty and well didn't get any better

Noah's POV

What the fuck is up with Mads its march break and all this girl is doing is staying in her room and when she leaves she decides to eat half the fridge at 9:30 at night and shes either happy, sad or miserable. I said I'd back off but maybe I shouldn't have

Mads POV

I haven't talked to anyone and it sucks. I might regret this but I miss him and he's always there for me. I pick up the phone and press his name almost instantly regretting it

...

Me: hey Mark

A/N im not finna say shit