Wandering Heart | YoonJinKook ✔️

25. Everyone Got Issues

Seokjin's Pov:

"My life is a mess." I let out looking at the flowing water.

"Don't say that your life is not a mess. Shit happens to all of us. I am just happy you walked, especially when you did, I think you should press charges against him, but it's up to you. You know I didn't really like that guy, and I do believe he can become obsessive, so make sure the alarm and locks are always on. You wouldn't want to terrify your kids with him showing up here unannounced, keep him out of your life and don't even try to entertain any apology from him either, you can do to him what you have done to Jungkook." Jimin said, giving me a knowing look as he feeds his daughter while we sat down by the pool.

"I am happy I did too, I don't even know why I allowed things to get so far, desperation has no limits. And, have you liked anyone I've ever been with? You didn't like Jungkook, either." I had to ask, as I realize there was a pattern with him not liking the men I chose.

Jimin looked at me, almost seeming offended by my question. "Jin, that's not a fair statement, and it's based on the past. I liked Jungkook, still do, he is a great guy, a cheater, yes, but it doesn't take away from the fact he is a nice guy. I just didn't want you marrying him without giving thought to things, you were young and someone I cared about. Yes, you were pregnant, but I did not see that as a valid reason for you to get married. However, after you got married, I realize that he was the one for you-"

"Was." I cut him off to make sure it was understood because he was right, he was the one, but no longer the one. That was a thing of the past.

"I don't think you guys should've gotten a divorce. I didn't agree with your decision back then and still don't to this day. If Taehyung and I can get through the shit we have been through, I think you and Jungkook could have worked through your problems. I have listened to you, and although I never heard his side, I know it was something you could have work through. You both were wrong, whether you want to admit it or not."

I shook my head, Jimin didn't get it, unless you go through it, you don't understand it. "Taehyung never cheated on you, you didn't lose a child together. I am not sure you understand, but I was beginning to feel so empty that it was suffocating at the same time. It became so much that not even my love for him could keep me sane. Yes, you are right he is a nice guy, but I need more than a nice guy, I need someone who understands the meaning of family, and commitment, he didn't.

Don't get me wrong, Jungkook will always be the first and only man I will ever love. Surprisingly, it took Yoongi for me to realize that, but we were just not meant to be. We tried, and we failed, but we did get two beautiful kids out of it, so I will count it as a blessing."

Picking up my wine, I took a sip and let out a deep sigh, looking at the waterslides and remembering how much Jae used to enjoy being here, I am sure he will be happy to be back in this house.

It seems Jungkook was still paying the bills and up keeping the place, nothing was out of place. I am sure cleaning people were coming by as well as there was not a speck of dust in the house.

Jimin places his daughter to stand so she could walk around and turned to look at me, "Taehyung cheated many times before we got married. It's one of the reasons why I rushed our marriage, which was stupid of me. I gave him an ultimatum the last time I found out he was cheating on me before we got married, telling him either he go and keep having his fun or he marries me. I cheated too, thinking I was getting back at him for cheating on me, this was all before we got married. It was stupid, thinking back, I was dumb. Playing fire with fire, you only get burned. I wish you had been more forthcoming with me about things, I think I could have helped to put some things into perspective, but you thought you could carry the world on your shoulders and that it was okay to do so, that shit only messes with you more.

Why do you think Taehyung and I waited to have a child together, we made a vow that we would only have kids if we survived two years into our marriage. I cannot tell you how many times we fought and still do, sometimes it even got physical, and no, he never hit me, but I did, which caused me to start anger management classes after I got pregnant."

I sat there looking at Jimin after he had finished talking, not really sure what to say, I never knew all that was going on between them.

"Wow, I don't know what to say-"

"You don't have to say anything I know it's a lot and sounds crapy, what I am trying to tell you and was trying to tell you two years ago is shit happens. No marriage or relationship is perfect. Just because you see Taehyung and me and we laugh and go everywhere together, don't mean we don't got our personal shit too. I am just like you, embarrassed to talk about it, but I don't deny it or ignore it, I deal with it. Right now, we are good, though, since having Miyoung, we have been doing a lot more to lessen our fights.

So, don't think you are alone in having issues, everyone has problems, whether they show it or not. The good thing is you freed yourself for permanent potential issues. If I were you now, I would focus on myself and just forget about men for a while. They are only distractions, and you don't need that right now, your kids need you, and you need you. Maybe this will finally allow you to finish school and progress with life like you had always wanted to."

I looked at Jimin and smiled because he was right; I needed to focus on me. I hadn't done that in- wait, I have actually never done that.