Behind Enemy Lines

Entry Nineteen (M)

October 29, 1944

I was numb.

Everything around me seemed like a haze.

I stopped screaming and allowed Torren to drag me down the steps into the furnace. Once inside he dragged me over to another room which appeared to be a hidden bed room with a bathroom.

“Mika please say something.” He whispered as he brought me over to the bathroom and flicked on the light.

I didn’t say a word.

He stood me up against the wall as he closed the bathroom door and turned on the shower. I glanced over to him and watched as he felt the water for the right temperature. As he was doing so I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked horrible. My face was pale and Luka’s blood was all over my face and my clothes. I was nothing more than a corpse.

A corpse who should be laid to rest.

“Take off your clothes” Torren said. I looked at him with confusion.

Did he just ask me to take off my clothes?

“Mika, I’m serious, take it off.” He said this time his tone was more stern.

I hesitated and shook my head. I couldn’t bring myself to move, not after what I had seen. And also the thought of Torren looking at my body scared me.

Torren let out a sigh as he went over to me and tugged on my shirt. He was so close to me, his mint scent was engulfing me with some unknown pleasure.

Torren then began to loosen my shirt; his soft fingers grazed the top of the ragged and bloody fabric, thus loosening them from my pants. My breath hitched as he then lifted the fabric over my head and tossed it aside, thus leaving me only in my jeans.

I looked away from Torren and covered my bare chest.

I was pathetic.

I was disgusting.

“Don’t, I want to see everything.” He said as he moved my arms aside. “Your beautiful Mika, don’t ever forget that.” He whispered as he trailed his soft fingers down my sides. I bit my lip hard to suppress a moan. I didn’t want to ruin this moment.

“I’m nothing…I’m disgusting. How could you look at me and still find me beautiful?” I asked as I closed my eyes. I could feel his warm breath on my skin as well as the steam from the shower.

“Mika, look at me please.” Torren said.

I opened my eyes and looked up at him.

Those chocolate brown eyes held the world.

Those chocolate brown eyes held my freedom.

“Torren…I’m scared.” I whispered.

“I know Mika, I know” he said as he rested his fingers over the hem of my jeans. “I’m going to undress you, please don’t be alarmed.” He added as he unbuttoned my jeans and allowed them to slide down. The only thing that was left was my underwear. I felt my cheeks burn up with some embarrassment and I covered myself down there automatically.

“C-can you turn around, I want to jump into the shower.” I mumbled.

Torren slightly smiled and nodded. I watched as he turned around and covered his eyes. I quickly tossed my pants aside and slid down my underwear, thus leaving me fully naked in front of Torren. I then walked into the shower, the warm water felt like an old friend.

I passed my hand under it, and then I allowed m body to slowly seep into it, Luka’s blood trailed down my body and into the drain. I felt even more horrified and began to sob.