𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐆𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐖𝐢𝐟𝐞 || 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐚

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟖: 𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬

Hannam The Hills, Seoul

9:00PM

Roseanne's POV.

"Tae can we talk?" I asked him standing in the doorway of his study.

After cleaning myself up, I found Taejoon in the bar downstairs nursing a Rum and coke. Part of me expected him to be somewhere with Irene. Attentively listening to her blab about how she was a former gymnast and how far she could drop down into a split but finding him alone gutted me. I was officially the antagonist in our relationship. The person with the fault big enough to end our marriage. The way he looked at me had me wanting to cry. He was hurt.

Fucking Lisa the morning after was one thing but allowing it to happen again while Taejoon waited for me was cruel and low. I was the lowest of the low.

This thing with Lisa had escalated from bad to worse in a matter of hours, and I knew that if I didn't tell Taejoon the truth it would only get worse. I could see it imploding from a mile away.

"Please, Tae." I implored.

He huffed an exaggerated breath.

Taejoon looked away from his computer. "Now you want to talk?" He asked. His voice was laced with fury. "You didn't want to talk when I asked you back at the club. You didn't want to talk at dinner. Now you want to talk while I'm working. I have a deadline," he said acidly.

He had a point but I couldn't let that stop me.

"There's a lot I need to tell you. I wanted to come to you with a clear head," I explained.

He turned his attention back to his computer. "Roseanne I'm working, alright? Maybe later."

"What I have to say is important. If I don't tell you now I'm afraid I never will." My voice was a whine fear and guilt had wrapped itself around my throat.

"I don't have time." His eyes were scrolling over the text of his webpage before he finished speaking and I knew that was his way of checking out of our conversation.

"You don't have time for anything anymore! I'm knocking my head against the table begging for your attention and you just look the other way. Instead of giving me your undivided time and attention you passed me off to someone else." The fact that he hadn't looked up from his screen made me furious. "I understand that you're angry with me for changing my mind about her. I know you expected me to say no but I'm a flesh and blood woman. I feel deprived in this marriage. And you kept pushing. And Lisa and I connected...."

And she does everything you don't. She doesn't treat me like a flower. She says what she means. She pays attention to me.  And she can fuck, and I needed it. I needed it more than I needed air. I don't want to hurt you but I can't control the need I have for her. Help me, please. I don't know what to do.

But I couldn't tell Taejoon any of that.

He couldn't handle it.

Tears caught in my throat.

He was silent. And then, "Can we talk about this later? I don't have time for this."

"You don't have time for this?" I mocked in a sniveling sing-song. "What does that mean? You don't have time for me? You don't have time for our marriage?" The anger crept into my voice even when I tried to will it away.

"Not right now. Not when I tried to get you to speak up earlier!" He shouted spitefully. "The entire world doesn't revolve around satisfying you. I have work to get done. We'll talk later."

I pushed his papers off the desk capturing his attention and holding it. His eyes blazed murderously. The veins in his neck were pulsing and swelling dangerously but I didn't care. I had a point and I was going to make it whether he wanted to hear it or not. I wasn't ready to throw away my marriage especially not because of Lisa.