For Ever

seven

dear ever,

after our first date, it took you one month to ask me out again. why were you sending me mixed signals? in that month i was overthinking, maybe you didn't want me after all. maybe our first date was the last. you confused me, a lot. 

"What exactly happened on your supposedly twenty-four hour date?" Bree asked as I laid down on my bed looking at the ceiling. I told Bree my concerns, Ever. I told her after our date that I wanted to give us a chance. She was ecstatic, she even said that it only took two hours for me to change my mind and that was something amazing. Ever, I was never the indecisive type of person. I know what I want and need, all my decisions have been carefully thought of. So, when I decide on something, I don't change my mind. But, you came. Somehow my brain couldn't function when it's about you.

"I told you multiple times, no matter how many times I tell you. The story will be the same."

"But I don't understand, the boy is clearly crazy about you. Why is it taking him this long to make another move? I'm gonna talk to him," Bree replied as she took her bag and fixed her hair.

"Where are you going?" I asked, hoping that she's not really taking this, that seriously. Ever, I was sad but I wasn't desperate. Although I can't say the same for Bree, she was desperate for me. I don't even know why.

"Weren't you listening? I'm going to Ever and I'm gonna go and fucking smack his head. I want to check if his brain is still there. For being one of the smartest guy in our college, he's kinda dumb," she said fuming with frustration. I sat up and went to her. She was about to leave but I grabbed her legs and hugged it like a koala hugging a tree.

"Let me go Tanisha, He's gonna have a piece of my mind," she sad trying to shake me off.

"Bree, calm down. I'm already over it," I lied but she didn't believe me. After another minute of struggling she agreed. I let her go and she sat down. I went back to my bed but once I got comfortable she made a run for it. Why is my best friend like this?

I immediately chased after her but I got surprised when I saw her just standing outside of our dorm. I walked nearer to see her glaring at you, Ever. You were outside holding a box and your phone. You turned to us and smiled.

"The audacity," Bree muttered still sending death glares on your way.

Ever, that day you didn't give me an explanation. You just said you were sorry and asked if your twenty-two hours that's left is still valid. I was mad, Ever. To be honest, you didn't deserve the hours that's left. You didn't deserve another chance. I was about to say no and end everything there but your eyes looked hopeful. Your eyes begged for another chance. You begged for another chance. That's when I knew I couldn't just let you go.

I missed you, you know? But was this your strategy? Make my heart yearn for you? So that you can reel me in and play with me? Ever, I thought about this a lot. But a part of me knew, that you weren't normally like this. That you had a good reason why. Since that day I hoped that I'll get an explanation. Until now, I'm still hoping. So, come back to me please.