For Ever

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dear ever,

kalix and bree got married today. they tried waiting for you since if you were here you would have been kalix's best man. but i guess they couldn't wait anymore, they did try though so don't get mad when you come back. we all miss you. it was a great day if you asked me, they even had a chocolate fountain and sushi bar. i suggested that and bree accepted it since it was request form me even though she didn't like sushi.

when the ceremony was taking place, i couldn't help but wonder when we'll get married. i always thought we'll marry first than bree and kalix especially when back in the day they had the most complicated love story ever. it's funny how things work out, doesn't it? because now, our story has completely beaten them in that category. we're kinda more complicated now. so can you please come back to me, and uncomplicate this?

"I hope you get a lot of sex," Bree said as I was packing my bag for Christmas break. As usual all Bree could ever talk about these days was my relationship with you, specifically the sex life. As her best friend she told me she was happy that I can finally move on from my quote and quote dry season, her words not mine. I sighed and stopped folding my clothes and stared at her, to which she asked why I was staring.

"I'm not gonna have my first time with my boyfriend in his parent's house Bree," I said slowly so she can understand. She gave me a puzzled look and said, "Why not? It's really thrilling if you ask me. Kalix and I do it all the-" she stopped midway because I threw a pillow at her before she goes in full detail with her sex life with Kalix. She glared at me and threw the pillow back but I managed to catch it and stuck my tongue out. She rolled her eyes at me and began packing her things as well.

I cleared my throat and tried to change the subject. Lately I've been concerned with Bree's relationship, or her lack thereof? I'm not quite sure anymore. "So, what's going on with you and Kalix lately?"

"We're just having sex," she replied shortly while packing her skin care in a clear pouch. Her expression didn't change nor did her body language but I guess with years of lying to her strict Catholic parents about her endeavors, I guess she can lie pretty well.

"I know you're lying. You're only doing it with him now for the past 2 months. Are you sure it's just sex?" I pry further. She was quiet for a bit and sighed, she looked at me and I saw tears start forming in her eyes. Oh Bree, what is happening?

"God I though you'd never ask, I was beginning to think I'm losing my best friend because of Ever. I was about to do some black magic shit to keep him form stealing you," she joked and wiped her tears. I stood up and took a box of tissues and gave it to Bree. I sat next to her and hugged her.

"Stupid, I'm not replacing you. I'm sorry I didn't ask sooner. I thought you would just tell me when you're ready. Plus, I thought it would be good news. You guys seemed pretty happy." When I said that, Bree cried harder and all I could do was pat her back. Bree and I have been best friends since 10th grade when I transferred to my present hometown. From the start we were inseparable, we just clicked. She's my soulmate and it pains me to see her like this.

"I feel so pathetic Tani," she paused and then pulled away from me. She looked at me and smiled sadly, "We are happy you know, or at least I was and he is still. At first we agreed to have sex exclusively. Like fuck buddies for each other only. It wasn't a problem since we were already doing it, multiple times. I'm not gonna lie, the attraction was there and I don't mind doing it with only him. Safer in not attaining STD's right? " she joked as she rambled. This has always been her way of communicating, she would always joke a bit when she has problems. She took a deep breath and slowed her pace in talking. "But I was stupid Tani."