I wake up at 2:13am because I have to pee. I wash my hands then sit back onto my bed. I lay back onto my back and grab my pillow. I lay on my side and try to clear my mind so I can fall back asleep. I feel myself start to relax back into sleep but them my consciousness gets stuck on its way out. I hear his voice again play through my head. "Why aren't you taking this seriously?" I close my eyes tight then give up and sit up. I stare into the darkness and think. Normally I'd be able to ignore this because it's a classic case of self denial but it's bothering me. Why does he think I'm not taking this seriously? I mean I'm generally a serious person, that's why some people don't like me because they find it intimidating. I wonder what insecurity he was hiding. I mean he definitely has attachment issues so he's probably just reflecting that onto me and shifting blame. Immature: yes but it's human.
I lay back down and fall asleep. I wake up and feel like garbage. I start getting ready for work and then walk to the mall. All through out my shift I felt like garbage. I wonder if it's something I ate or because it's so hot. I haven't gotten an apology text from Ellis yet I don't really care. I don't know why he made such a big deal over me hanging out with Aron. He wants to have control over what I do and who I see but he wants to have one nightstands and party? That's so obnoxious. Goodnight late night distractions.
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Bite Me Softly
RomanceEllis is the rich playboy and Briar is just another one night fling. He's used to being independent and always has been until he realizes he needs someone, but does anyone need him?
