Three Years A Nick Jonas Story (Book One)

Chapter 18

Joe's POV

I couldn't believe what had happened. My biggest fear had came true. I lost my girl to my younger brother. She reassured me her feelings for him had vanished. I guess they didn't.

I haven't left this spot on the couch since Nick was here. My hair is a mess and my beard had grown. As I hold an opened beer in hand. I stared out the window.

Remember the part of my heart that was hanging by the simple flesh of my insides? That has completely shattered. All that's left in it's place is nearly ripped off bloody skin. It's so dark in there without it. It's almost as if someone dumped black paint inside of me.

I took a drink from my half empty beer. As it went down my throat. I felt like a plant someone was pouring water on. You know, when the water splatters everywhere once it hits the dirt. The only difference is that it was beer instead of water. The bottom of my stomach was like cement instead of dirt. I don't think anything is going to grow inside me for a real long time. I feel so empty inside.

My phone then started to go off. I picked it up and saw a text from Nick.

Bro, we need to talk. Come by my apartment when you can

I squeezed my phone. I don't want to see anyone right now. Let alone my back stabbing brother. I didn't feel like responding so I closed my eyes. Soon enough I drifted off to sleep.

An hour later I got woken up from my brother calling me. I hesitated before answering.

"I really don't want to talk or see you right now," I said gripping the phone tightly.

"I know Joe, but we really need to talk."

"About what? You have the girl. Why can't you leave me alone? Both of you." I heard Nick on the other end sigh.

"Please, it's either that or we're coming over there." I got real quite. I don't want them to come and see my hell hole. I have beer cans and shit everywhere. I took a deep breath.

"Fine, I'll be there in 15," I said before hanging up the phone.

Once I arrived at Nick's I was about to open the door but stopped. Memories came flooding back of when the amount of times Shay and I been caught kissing. So I closed my eyes and knocked on the door. Nick answered it and I stepped inside.

Once I entered I didn't see Shay anywhere. Nick then led me to the couch and we both sat down.

"Shay's in the shower. She'll be out in a few." 'Great,' I thought to myself.

"Out of all things, why do this to me?" I asked staring in his eyes. He looked down before answering.

"I'm sorry, I know there's nothing I can say that'll make this okay. Feel free to hate me all you want. I wouldn't blame you if you do." As much as I wanted to scream in his face, I couldn't. He's my brother, I couldn't possibly hate him over a girl.

As Nick and I stared in silence, Shay entered the room. She sat down next to Nick wearing short shorts and a half shirt showing her stomach. Really? She had to wear that out of all things? I bit my lip and looked away.

"I know this is hard for you. It's hard for us to. Is their anything we can do to make this easier on you?" Shay asked fumbling around with her hands. Why did she ask me that when she clearly knows the answer? Come back to me. It's that easy.. But who am I kidding? I wish it was that easy.

"Just give me sometime. This'll all pass over. Now will you excuse me?" I asked before getting up and entering Nick's room. I shut the door and sat in front of his keyboard.

"And I die one day at a time
Cause I just can't seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try
Try to kill the time
I think that I might be going crazy
One day at a time" Shay entered the room and sat down next to me.

"I won't be able to live without you in my life. So I ask if we can still be friends sometime in the future?" She placed her hand on my leg. I smiled,

"I'm not going anywhere. You're kind of stuck me with ya know? Despite you being with Nick. I want you to be happy. And if Nick makes you happy. I have no right to stand in your way." She smiled at me and gave me a hug. As I hugged her back I couldn't help but feel at ease. I looked up from still hugging her and noticed Nick standing in the doorway smiling. Maybe this is all for the best. Maybe this is the push that I needed. Maybe things will start looking brighter for me again.