After what happened to the kitchen. We immediately goes to the hospital here in the country. At tama nga ang hinala ko. I'm pregnant with my own baby. Maybe siya ang panganay na anak ko but now bunso na siya kaagad. I didn't even imagine to this. That one day this will be happen to us.
We're so happy and we want to share happiness to others. So that's what we do. We called the others and tell this good news of ours.
And they're all happy about the news and so we are.
"Should we buy clothes to for the baby?"
"I don't think so, Babe. We haven't know the gender yet. Saka na kapag nalaman na natin ang gender niya para hindi din masayang yung mga bibilhin natin."
Sabi ko at agad naman akong tumingin sa isa ko pang baby. I couldn't really stop myself about thinking of what happened here in Switzerland. It's a lot of happenings that we experienced that we never expect. I mean yes of having a baby but not as two of it.
"You should sleep. Anong oras na." He says. While hugging me in the back. While looking at the crib that baby aurora sleeping.
"I can't. I'm stilk thinking"
"About what?"
"Tungkol sa lahat ng nangyari satin dito sa Switzerland."
"Me either" at agad itong lumipat ng pwesto at tumabi sa akin. He's now hugging me. While me using his arm as my pillows. This of position of us is my favorite.
"We received a lot of blessings and good happenings that we never expected." He started kissing my forehead to my checks until he reached my neck and slowly burden his face to my neck.
"I slowly reaching my goals. My dreams to be exact and thanks to you. No, It's because of you babe."
"Hindi ko inaasahan na mangyayari ang ito sa buhay ko. I mean lagi akong naka focused sa Iba. I always thinking of what others people thinking about me. I always thinking that i should be perfect so they wouldn't disappoint about me. So they wouldn't get hurt if i do this or that moves or ways. Nabuhay ako na laging iniisip ang iba. Na sana hindi sila ma-disappoint sa mga ginagawa ko. As you can see i always think about armys who's thinking about me too." Pagpatuloy niya pa.
"Before they calling me Golden Maknae and I'm not satisfied to my own moves, dance skills even to my vocal voice. So i did a lot of practice so they will be proud of me and not to be disappointed because of me. Hindi ko naman inaasahan na ito ang mangyayari sa akin. I just really admire namjoon-hyung that time so that's why i joined the company where he is. I didn't imagine that i could perform in the biggest stadium in the world because of the fans. So i really did my best to make them satisfy. I really did. To the point I'd made myself a lot of pressure and that's triggered my anxiety. And it's hard for me. You know. It's really hard."
Ngayon ko lang nakitang naglabas ng saloobin si Jungkook. Because before he will just say he's not okay and then he will just hugged me and saying he's fine after that.
Sinabi niya lahat ng sakit at hirap ng pinagdaanan niya bago niya makamit ang tagumpay even they're in the top hindi nila nakakalimutan ang mga taong tumulong sa kanila noon hanggang ngayon.
Andami niya pang-sinabi sa akin. Likes what his doing if can't say anything and do anything he wants. Likes what his doing if he'd planning to go outside with his friends. Likes what he wants to do like a normal person. and it's really hard to hear does words comming from him. He even said that how he always scared when there's paparazzi tailing or following them when ever they going outside.
Hanggang sa umabot kami ng hatinggabi kakausap ng tungkol sa saloobin namin dalawa sa mga bagay bagay at naranasan namin dito sa mundo.
Nang sinabi niyang kailangan na naming matulog ay agad niya akong inalalayan sa tabi niya para yakapin ng mahigpit he even sang his favorite song to me so i can sleep peacefully.
I never thought that this will be more hurtful lalo na na si Jungkook na mismo ang nagsabi ng mga salitang iyon. And it's too obvious that he's hiding it since before because he has nothing to say so. Kahit na mayroon siyang Hyungs na nag-aalaga at nagmamahal sakanya hindi niya na iniisip ang sarili niyang saloobin. Kasi alam niyang maging ang mga ito ay may saloobin at ayaw niyang maging pabigat pa dito. Kaya instead of saying those words he kept it.
He's to worried about the others and he even forgot his own feelings because of too much caring for the others. Halos ang mga Hyungs niya na ang nagpalaki sakanya. Since his highschool days ay sila na mismo ang nag-aalaga kay Jungkook so they are worth it of saying that we're thankful to have them in jungkook's life. At masaya ako na nadyan din si Jungkook para sakanilang lahat. They have their each others' sides since they were little and innocent for this world.
Deserve nila ang mga awards at parangal na natatagap nila ngayon dahil sa hirap at tiyaga na ginawa nila noon. Hindi naman nila mararating iyan kung hindi nila ito pinaghirapan. Pinagpuyatan at halos ibuhos na nila ang buong buhay nila para sa taong sumusuporta sa kanila. At doon ko lang na-realize na hindi ang awards ang habol nila kundi ang mas mahalaga Sakanila ay ang pagmamahal na ibinibigay ng mga armys. Kaya handa silang isugal ang buhay nila para sa mga taong nagmamahal ng tunay at tapat sakanila simula palang nung una at sa mga taong tumulong sa kanila sa kabila ng mga pinagdaanan nila ay naging matatag at mas lalong lumakas ang samahan nila sa bawat isa.
Kaya masaya ako na mayroon silang Isa't isa na masasandalan sa kahit ano mang problema. At masaya ako na parte ako ng pamilya nila. Makatuluyan ko man si Jungkook o hindi. Masaya ako na naging parte ako ng pamilyang binuo nila hanggang sa huli.
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pwede kayong makinig ng music while reading this chapter.
Just the way you are- Bruno Mars
intentions- Justin Bieber
