Break the rules /FADIE / Finn and Sadie fanfic

Chapter 20

Sadie: 
It had been a week since the whole concert drama and things had finally started to die down again.  The producers were on our back though, with Millie having been 'sick' for most of last week we were all behind on our shooting schedule.  Finn and I had got into a routine of sneaking away from set during our breaks in shooting. I'd usually end up being pressed against the wall outside my trailer kissing Finn like I needed it to breathe... before we inevitably had to go back inside. 

I was looking forward to shooting today, sometimes filming got pretty boring when you do the same scenes over and over again for days but today we were going to be shooting on location.  This means we were leaving set and shooting around Georgia, as far as I knew it was just scenes of us biking around Georgia. Maybe Finn or Millie would have some lines but I didn't need to learn anything. I could feel the excitement bubbling up in my chest, today was a day where I could pretend we were all just regular teenagers and have some fun. Sometimes I envied the kids who could go out with their friends whenever they wanted.  They went to regular schools, had regular friends.  I hadn't seen my friends from back home in months. 

Secretly I was hoping I could get Caleb alone to talk with him, I had really missed him and I hoped things wouldn't be weird between us anymore. 

It was just the five of us out on our bikes, there were cameras and people watching contentedly from the sidewalks but I tried to block all of it from my mind.  To me I was just riding around with my best friends.  I could close my eyes and it was a normal day, no work and no stress.  But as soon as I opened my eyes there was a camera in my face and I had to be someone else.  I had been playing Max for nearly five years now and I felt like I knew her perfectly.  

She's cooler than me, more passionate than me, more decisive than me. I wondered if she'd like me, you know if she was real. Would we be friends or would she think I was dumb.  Probably.  
Millie caught my eye from where she had parked her bike on the sidewalk.  Random people passing by stared at her in awe.  She definitely looked the part, with fake blood gushing from her nose and torn clothing.  I could tell she loved the attention, practically bathed in it.  I was glad, she was younger than me but definitely liked being in the spot light a lot more than me. 

I rode over to her, just as the crew was touching up her makeup.  I didn't say anything I only smiled at her and she smiled back. I couldn't believe I was lucky enough to have her as a best friend, I don't think I'd give her up for a shot at a more normal life.  She was worth it, I looked around at Noah, Finn and Caleb talking on the other side of the road, they all were. 

"One more take, then let's ask the boys if they want to go out for milkshakes or something," Millie said while shaking out her hair and getting back on her bike.  She rode past me and left me standing alone.  The sun was high and beating down on the tar, I could feel the heat through my shoes.  My sickeningly bright clothing tried it's best to keep the sun off my neck but I could feel my pale skin burning. I was going to be terribly red for the next few days. 

The boys were desperate for a break so it wasn't hard to convince them. The cafe was small and sweet and I felt nostalgic for the day Finn helped me practice skating.  As always I ordered a strawberry milkshake and contentment settled deep inside me.  Finn slid into the booth next to me and without thinking he slung an arm around my shoulders and asked if I was doing all right.  I smiled up at him and with my friends sitting all around me, I wanted to stay here forever. Not have to worry about work or school or drama.  Just sit here staring into Finn's sun kissed face, freckles were starting to appear on his cheeks and nose and I wanted to trace them with my finger, like they do in those romantic movies. 

My fantasies disappeared soon enough, they always do these days. 
"What's all this then?" Millie asked with a forced high pitched giggle while pointing between Finn and me.  I could feel Finn tense, he squeezed my side a little too hard and retracted his arm quickly as though he had been burned.  
"Sades did well today," was the only explanation he gave with a shrug of his shoulders before turning his attention to the milkshake in front of him. I could feel the blush sitting high on my cheeks and I offered Millie a bashful smile.  She accepted it easily enough but Caleb was shooting Finn a confused stare.  I reminded myself that here, in front of our friends Finn and I were also just friends.  Nothing else... we needed to be more careful around people. 

The milkshakes were finished way too soon, Finn and Millie needed to film a scene together so they maneuvered out the beige colored booth and started walking together towards the film crew.  They were chatting happily and I was glad their friendship was blossoming now that Millie didn't make a move every two seconds.  We started trailing after them but I grabbed Caleb's arm and held him back.  Noah kept walking and soon we were along outside of the quaint cafe. 

" I want to talk," I said with a warm smile that wasn't returned. 
"About what?"  He said looking tense, Caleb made an effort to look anywhere but directly at me.  "About a lot of stuff," I said with a giggle, trying to lighten the mood and make him less tense. "Um Sadie, I'm not really in the mood for talking right now..." I gave him a stern stare and he relented.  This was happening whether he liked it or not.  I dragged him back into the cafe and made him sit down.  Once we were inside he seemed more relaxed, we didn't order anything but the waitress didn't seem to mind letting us sit for a while. 

"I'm sorry things have been so awkward between us lately, it was just hard to know where we stood after the break up." I started, he nodded slowly and I took it as a sign to keep going. 
"I really want to be friends again, and be close like we used to be, I know I acted weird and we've drifted a lot," He let out a small laugh and the ball of tension that had been slowly growing in my chest melted away. 
"I just want to back to normal," I finished and waited for him to say something.  He leaned back and let out a sigh. 
"Sadie, are we ever going to just be friends again, there's a history here... ex's who stay friends never end well. They either hook up or secretly hate each other." 
"I don't hate you Caleb I just want-" 
"Woah woah woah Sadie," He cut me off, "if you wanna hook up that's a whole other conversation." I could feel my cheeks heat up involuntarily and my mouth hung open like a dead fish, I didn't know what to say. That's not what I meant at all and to my horror he kept talking. 

"I mean I'd be down for it," he said laughing, "I might as well get some action out of this 'just being friends'thing." No words were coming out my mouth but I physically had to stop him talking, all I could manage was a shake of my head. 
"That's not what I meant," I mumbled softly and my fingers reached out to fiddle uselessly with the table cloth.  He kept going but I shut him out, is that really all he thought of me? 
"That's not what I meant," I said loudly so that he could hear me this time. "I'm with someone else Caleb, I just want to be friends okay,"  it felt good to see his mouth quirk down and the rest of his sentence be lost in his throat. 

"You're with someone?" He asked, that wasn't the point, I didn't mean to say that but now it was out in the open I may as well roll with it. 
"Uh yea, it's going well I think," he nodded and with his eyebrows pulled into an expression I couldn't quite recognize. "Who is it?" and I think I heard genuine concern in his voice even if it was just for a second.  I didn't answer, how could I, he would hate me but even worse he would hate his best friend. 

My eyes were drawn to the commotion that was happening outside, Finn and Millie were shooting right outside the cafe and from where we were seated I had the whole view of the scene. Finn held Millie in his arms as she cried, she was an amazing actor, the tears ran down her face along with fake blood and grime.  Suddenly Finn leaned down and kissed her, it was passionate and heartfelt, he lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around him. It stung 

I much have shown the hurt I felt on my face because Caleb immediately looked outside too. He looked back at me with sudden realization. I could see the hurt in his face and he could obviously see the hurt in mine.  "It's his job," was all he offered in comfort. I fucking knew it was his job.  But it still hurt for some reason.  "I know." 

We sat in silence for a few moments, "I didn't know," he muttered awkwardly looking down at the table. "He never told me, I can't believe he didn't tell me." He seemed to be talking more to himself than to me. I offered a small smile, "he didn't want to hurt you. He thought you'd be mad."  Caleb returned the smile this time and I felt at ease. "I couldn't be mad at him, he's my best friend, sometimes it feels like he's my only friend since Gaten left."  his confession tugged on my heart and I remembered why we used to be so close.  "The offer still stands," I say, "to be friends." He stood up and offered me his hand. 

We walked out the cafe with our arms linked he leaned down and whispered, "I'm still going to beat him up for not asking me first, the motherfucker didn't even tell me." I burst out laughing and hit him lightly on the arm. "And.." he said with a playful wink, "If you ever want to make him jealous I'm right here."  My laughter didn't stop until we reached the others. 

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