DESOLATE FIRE; J. HALE [4]

TEN; PLASMA

I SHIMMIED DOWN THE medical bed anxiously, the couch roll ripping under me. Even though Carlisle had spoken to me about the medical procedure I was still slightly nervous about what was going to happen. Needles and different vials lay next to me on a metal table. I had ripped of heads and broken bones before but for some reason needles made me squirm like no other.

The door opened and Jasper walked in, closing it gently behind him. Walking over, he smiled at me and took my hand. "You sure you're alright?" We had had a conversation earlier about me doing this but there was no way I was saying no if it could help Bella.

"Yes, Jasper. I'll be fine, I trust Carlisle completely. Besides, I can't die anyway. What's the worst that can happen?" Trusting my luck, I would regret saying that.

His thumb stroked the back of my hands and he sat down next to me on the small chair that sat by the bed, I had sat in it a few times with Bella. "Long as you are sure. Here he comes" 

On queue Carlisle walked through the door and smiled at both of us, he was dressed head to toe in his usual attire for Bella's appointments. "Hello" His head dipped down to us as he raked through the drawers in his study.

"So this isn't going to hurt right?" I looked for comfort from him.

Shaking his head, he took off his glasses and spoke clearly. "I can't quite say it will be painless. The needle will need to be pierced into the soft tissue of your neck in order for the plasma to be extracted accurately" I winced. "So, you'll probably feel a pinch and slight pressure"

I nodded, pulling my lips into a fine line. "Slight pinch..okay. That's fine, it will be good" My hand was squeezed encouragingly. "What do you think my plasma will do for Bella?"

"I have a theory that your plasma contains antibodies that can capture a persons ability, power, pain and feelings. I hope, in practice, that if Bella was to drink it, she could project her pain and feelings on those around her. It doesn't guarantee safety for mother and child but it prevents discomfort. We will only really know at time of delivery" Bella could pop any day now, so this was important.

"Okay" I swallowed.

"Shall we begin?" The quicker this was over, the quicker we would know if it could help Bella deliver and feel less pain. After agreeing he went over to his medical bench and grabbed a very long needle. Very long. Long. And walked back over to us.

"Does it need to be that big? That seems a little bit excessive, you know?" Jasper chuckled beside me as I tried not to cry. I mean- I was really really brave and it showed.

"Well, yes. The full needle won't go into you, it's just to make sure that it gets to the soft tissue, which is hidden behind muscle and quite deep" He lined it up to my neck and I braced myself. "You'll feel a small scratch" Why do they always say that? It's never a scratch, it's more like a pinch honestly. This wasn't that bad - yes, I could feel pressure and slight burning but I had been through worse. He filled up the individual vials on his table and smiled at me. "All done! That was good, well done"

I turned to Jasper, he looked paler than usual. I laughed. "You squeamish?" His shocked face turned to embarrassment as he slapped my arm.

"Hardly love"

My eyes glanced over to the vials, they looked a strange orangey green color. Definitely not the usual bright red color of blood that I knew and loved. "So she'll drink that?"

He nodded. "Yes, we can see then how it affects her and the fetus. It shouldn't be negatively affected because you share the same DNA so there's no chance of rejection in any way" That was good. I'd hate to make her worse than she already was.

"Awesome. I'm glad I can help her"

"You've been more help than you realise, I don't think she would've got through this if it wasn't for you" Jasper always knew what to say. It was one of the thing's I loved dearly about him.

"Yes, Jasper's right. She will be delivering any day now and you'll be right by her side. She'll need her sister through every step" He paused. "Right till the very end" The room's mood fell. The thought of Bella dying and never coming back was something of a nightmare. I had had many weeks to prepare myself but I don't think I ever will be. She's my sister soulmate.

"Thank you Carlisle. Really" He bowed his head, smiling and left the room, leaving me and Jasper in comfortable silence.

We sat together. His hand still gripping mine tightly. "What do you think dying is like?"

He looked at me, startled. "Well, I can't remember dying. But, I like to believe death is peaceful - our whole lives we are constantly moving, constantly doing things and in death we reflect on them, finally stopping and getting a chance to look back"

His heart was beautiful, I could feel his emotions grow as he spoke. "And do you think it's painful?"

"No, it's the same feeling you get after you've been away from home for a long time and finally walk through the front door. Death is relief, death is watching your loved once grow and become strong without you. Death is peace" He stopped. "We shouldn't be afraid of it, no matter how scary it sounds" His hard arms pulled me into a tight hug. "Bella will be alright no matter what happens, I know it"

My wet cheeks soaked into his shirt. "I hope you are right. I love you Jasper"

"And I love you too Scar"

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𝓐𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓝𝓸𝓽𝓮

This made me sad to write. Death is a touchy subject, it's scary for sure. What do you think will happen? I'm excited for the next few chapters - only a few left of the book!! Side note - how gorgeous is Dylan O'Brien? I'd love to do a Teen Wolf or TVD Book next. Let me know what you think!

Love to all x