DREAMS..... Make it or Break it !

The Excruciating Truth

A perfect morning, my mom made sure I had my breakfast and medicines too and I left home along with my elder brother.

I left my brother outside and went to the exam hall. I still can't believe the day arrived so soon. My competitive exam was going to start in a few minutes. Time is limited and questions are unlimited. Meanwhile my head started dazzling and I fainted in the class. All were shocked. Teachers gave me water to drink and asked me am I okay? I answered yes and went back to the class. I wasn't able to concentrate on any of the questions, I was feeling very low and I just wanted to go back home. I ticked on my guesses anyhow and put my paper aside then I put my head down on the desk. The bell rang and we had to hand over our papers back. I walked till the gate to see my brother and seeing me he came to know the whole story. He ran to get an energy drink for me as my BP went low. He made me to sit and calm down. I started crying and said sorry! I lost it. He said not to worry and trust god, whatever happens, happens for good and we left for home.

We both didn't say anything and locked our mouths. Every one asked. How did the exam go? I replied, fine in a really low tone. I lied to everyone.

My cell phone beeped up with a new message. All of my friends messaged me asking how was it? I didn't reply to any of them. I cried a lot for breaking the trust of everyone in me. I cursed myself for everything.

My cell phone started ringing. This time it was Siddharth. He too asked the same question what all asked me. I remained silent and said I don't want to talk about it. He asked, why? What's the matter? I burst out in tears and started explaining him everything from the start. He said in a satisfying tone "it's okay. You can't blame yourself for everything? It was meant to be. Please stop worrying about it and stop blaming yourself for everything. Try for it again and this time make it real and do take care and he hung up the phone.

I wish I don't worry about it but it's about my career, again a year, all my friends will move ahead with success in their hands and I'll be at same old place. I need to talk to mom and tell her everything about it, I can't lie to her after all it's not only my dream it's her too. I am going to let her know everything whatever may be the consequences. I know it'll be painful for her but I have to....