Under Pink Skies (Villamor Cousins Series #1)

Chapter 26

I woke up and immediately saw a familliar ceiling. Tumitig ako doon at lumipad agad ang isip ko.

I now know what really happened to me. I remembered it all that made my heart broken into pieces.

I was inlove with Arc that's why I suffered from amnesia. I have crashed with a car because of him.

A tear fell from my eye. Kaya pala tingin siya ng tingin sa akin sa eroplano dahil alam niya ang nangyari sa akin. Kaya pala wala siyang magawa kundi ang tumitig lang sa akin dahil alam niyang minahal ko siya.

Minahal.

'Minahal' is a past tense and that's not probably what I'm feeling right now. I guess I love him more but I don't want to hurt myself again. I don't want to break and lose myself again, just like before.

Was the engagement really happened despite of the accident I encountered?

Yes. Of course. Sino ba ako para mapatigil ang kasal nila dahil lang sa naaksidente ako, hindi ba? I was just his fuck buddy that time.

Did he love me? My heart crumpled at the thought. He didn't even love me so why am I making a drama here?

Many what ifs, thoughts and guessing appeared in my mind that made my heart hurt more. I'm just hurting myself. I should stop overthinking things that can cause a heart ache.

I wiped my tears off my face using the back of my hand before I wandered my eyes of the place.

Nakita ko kaagad sila Hale, Jean at Sheen na nakatihaya sa sofa ng kwarto, natutulog sa siguro, sobrang pagod. I smiled and appreciate the small things they effort but gives a big impact to me.

Bakit ko hinayaan ang sarili kong ilulong ang pagmamahal ko sa ibang tao at iniwan sila? My tears burst even if I don't want to give in but I did. I can't stop from crying, appreciating the small things that my cousins did for me.

Hinawakan ko ang kwintas na suot-suot ko pa din ngayon. I'm hurt but I still love him. I know he's probably married right now so I should move on, but... I just can't stop loving him in despite of the years we wasted.

Suminghot ako at pinunasan ang pisngi dahil sa mga luhang hindi matapos. Naramdaman kong bumangon si Hale galing sa pagkakatihaya at tinawag ako gamit ang napakahina niyang boses.

"Xy?"she called and went near me.

Tinignan ko siya at agad siyang niyakap dahil sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman. I felt her smiled and caressed my hair while I'm busy bursting my tears on her chest.

"That's okay..."she softly said and caressed my hair that made me cry more. Lumayo siya sa akin at hinawakan ang pisngi ko.

"Naalala mo na ba?"tanong niya na nagpatango sa akin. She smiled before she pulled me for a hug. Humagulgol ako sa kaniyang dibdib dahil sa sobrang nararamdaman.

After I cried and felt satisfied, Hale pushed me apart and smiled at me.

"Naalala mo na ba siya?"tanong niya na nakakunot ang noo. Nakatungo lang ako at tinitigan ang kuko nang tinanong niya iyon.

"Yeah. I now remembered him."I answered while still looking at my nails. I heard her sighed and tapped my shoulder after.

"That's the problem with getting attached with someone. When they leave, you feel lost."litanya ni Hale at ginulo ang magulo ko nang buhok.

"Ayan ka na naman, eh. Hashtag words of wisdom for today, 'When they leave, you feel lost.'"I mocked and qouted the qouted words.

Umirap siya at hinawi ang buhok niyang maalon. We laughed at each other that made my feeling light.

Rinig na rinig ang tawa namin kaya nagising ang dalawa galing sa pagkakatulog. They looked at Hale before they turned their eyes at me. I smiled that triggered them to went to me and gave me a hug.

I laughed because of their aggressiveness. They also asked me if I already remembered all the things and I just answered them honestly. I should tell them the truth because... Duh?! It's useless if I won't, because they will know eventually.

They told me how hard they tried to not sleep for them to watch over me. They also told me that I've been sleeping for four days straight and good thing I woke up today.

Around 3 pm, my parents arrived and immediately hugged me. I assure them that I am fine and I now remember all. Nag-aalala pa din sila sa akin dahil nga baka sasakit pa ang ulo ko. Umirap nalang ako dahil sa pagiging overprotective nila sa akin pero ngumiti nalang din at nagpasalamat.

Dra. Ocampo visited me that day to check on me. The doctor also told me that I can go out tomorrow morning so I felt so excited.

Okay naman na daw ako pero hindi pa din daw magpadalos dalos. I just thanked them before they went out of my room.

My parents went out also to pay my bills here in the hospital and left me with my cousins inside. I wanted to go outside to look around so they have no choice but to let me be and escort me wherever I want. Ang sabi ng doctor ay pwede naman daw akong lumabas pero kailangan may kasama.

Nagbihis muna ako bago ako lumabas kasama ang mga pinsan. I wore my gray sweat shirt and my white jogging pants then I let my hair down. Hindi na din ako nag-abalang mag-ayos ng aking mukha dahil hindi naman ako pupunta ng bar.

"Xy, lalandi ka ba dito sa hospital? Bawal yan!"ani Sheen at umiling iling. Umirap ako at kinamot ang ulo.

Binatukan agad ni Jean si Sheen at agad din siyang nagreklamo. I bit my lower lip to hide my laugh when I saw how miserable Sheen's face was.

Hale escorted me out by holding my arm. Nang palabas na kami ay agad kaming sinalubong ni Kaye na nakascrub suit habang ang mga kamay ay nasa bulsa.

"Saan ka pupunta, alipin?"pang-aasar niya sa akin kaya tinaasan ko siya ng gitnang daliri. She parted her lips and widened her eyes as if she's shock of my move.

"Foul yan!"asik niya at humalik sa pisngi ko. Binigyan ko agad siya ng nakakadiring tingin at pinagpag ang pisngi kung saan siya humalik kanina.

Umirap siya, "So maarte."aniya at hinawi ang matuwid ngunit maikli niyang buhok. She asked Hale about where we're going and Hale answered her that we'll head to my parents, uncertain.

Sumabay si Kaye sa kung saan kami pupunta at nang nakaabot na kami sa area kung saan magbabayad, napatigil ako.

I stiffened when I saw his green-colored eyes that made my breathing hitched and my heartbeat doubled. My eyes widened when I saw him standing there, watching me.

But my heart immediately felt hurt when a finger hold his biceps that made him look away from me. Tears pooled inside my eyes when I saw Frida in her violet dress with a Gucci belt, holding firmly on his biceps.

Hale immediately pulled me towards her when a tear fall from my eye and followed by another.

I think it's really time to move on. I have no choice but to move on. So I could protect my heart from the heartbreaks.

I wish I didn't love you enough and gave everything to you. I should have love myself better than loving you.

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xoxo