Miyuki-senpai...? (Discontinued)

Part 9 - life can be harsh...

I drew the picture at the top. Not that good but I spent a good few hours on it... my camera makes the drawing look a little strange as well :/

Sawamura Pov

I can never talk to Miyuki ever again... why the hell did I do that? If anyone walked in they would have thought we were doing something. God... I'm an idiot. I'm still pacing the room covering my face. I really am an idiot... I look over at my drawers seeing my bag, I walk over to it pick it up and left the room quickly. I walk hurriedly to the bathhouse knowing that everyone is still asleep so I can go. I normally go when it's extremely crowded since I forget to wake up to my alarm... I walk into the bathhouse to the lockers taking everything off and leaving my clothes in my locker.

After my shower, I walk back to my locker pulling out my clothes and putting them back on only for the journey back to my dorm room, since I have my school uniform in my wardrobe. I walk quickly back to my dorm room with my towel on my head and my bag in my left hand. I open the door rubbing my hair lightly as I walk into the well lit room. Kuramochi and Kominato are sitting on Kuramochi's bed talking and laughing while I walk to my wardrobe opening the wooden doors to show my school uniform and baseball uniform. I don't have much I can hang in my wardrobe so they're the only things in there... I pull of Miyuki's hoodie and my nightclothes. I pull on my school uniform making sure I look semi presentable for classes, I don't plan on sleeping in classes today since I kind of don't feel like I can after all the drama, maybe doing as I'm told in class will be good.

I look over at my bed just now noticing Miyuki is gone... oh no. Did I cause him to leave? Kuramochi does his signature laugh as he climbs down the ladder of the bunk, "you seem worried Bakamura... oh. You didn't cause him to leave. He had to quickly go back to his room and get ready for classes, along with getting clothes for the match drawings for the fall tournament... basically, he has to make sure his spare school clothes are ironed and neat," I nod my head understanding why he left early. I walk over to my bed and I start towel drying my hair while humming the song I hummed last night. I continue humming while combing my hair and shaking my head a little before opening the door, I look back at Kuramochi before saying, "see you and Kominato at practice," Kominato nods while pulling his school uniform on, I'm guessing he has spare clothes in our dorm room since he isn't the same size as Kuramochi. They'll probably head over to breakfast before school, I'm not that hungry, to be honest...

I open the door fully walking out the door and closing it behind me I look to my left to start walking to the school when someone grabs me by my right elbow, "skipping breakfast are we?" Miyuki says as I turn to look at him. "I'm not feeling very hungry Miyuki, I can eat later..." I pull my arm out of his grip and Miyuki grabs my shoulder this time turning me fully to face him, "I'm not letting you do that... not after..." he looks away slightly cursing, I look at him with curiosity and concern, "what's wrong?" He runs his hand through his hair looking at me before pulling me onto the bench in front of my dorm room.

He looks away slightly before starting to speak, "you can't tell anyone about this, okay?" He says as I nod, "I won't tell another living soul," I say looking him in his eyes to prove I won't tell anyone. "Okay, let's begin. The cause for my nightmares... my mother's death..." I look at him wide eyed as he continues to tell me what happened,

"When I was roughly five I was walking home with my mum after seeing my first baseball match. I was overexcited and kept asking if we can go again while pulling on my mum's sleeve which caused her to laugh but because I continuously was distracting her we ended up walking the wrong way... a very wrong way. We were walking with me jumping around and talking continuously on what I learnt from watching only one game. We ended up walking into an alley and when we did my smiles fell, no more excitement... just the cold. My mum grabs my hand that was only seconds ago tugging on her sleeve, she held me close to her as she turned walking quickly with me running next to her trying to exit the alley as quickly as possible. We got a few steps forward before four guys that were leaning against the wall stood up and started smirking at us. I stood right next to my mother hoping it would protect me from the men... it didn't. A man that was behind us grabbed me and I screamed at being picked up harshly by the older man. My mother tried to grab for me only for one of the guys to kick her legs from behind causing her to fall to her knees and nearly hit her head... my mother was actually terribly weak due to the treatment she was being given for an unknown disease. I reached out to my mum crying, the man holding me pulls out a knife and threatens to cut or even kill me if I didn't shut up. I ended up screaming due to my young age, also the fact that I didn't like being held by even my family. The man cut my left shoulder right across my shoulder blade, I screamed, of course, earning me a slap from the man. I instantly fell silent after that, the man forced me to watch what they did to my mum, they pulled her by the hair and left small slashes across her neck and then her face. She saw me watching and she screamed out, "leave my son out of this! He's just a kid!" One of the men slap her full force and she falls on her side coughing up blood, I look at the scene feeling worthless. I reach out to her and she does the same with what little strength she had before one of the guys walks over and slits her throat making her look at me as her eyes clouded over. Then the sound of sirens made the man holding me drop me onto the concrete and I scream in pain from landing on my face. I quickly stood up though and I run over to my mum holding her hand asking her to wake up before crying. I fell asleep next to her crying, the police found me lying there and had the paramedics check me over. I had a broken nose and a few baby teeth missing but they were loose already so it wasn't major...," I hug him as he finishes, he might not be crying but I can tell he is upset and nervous.

"My dad didn't take her death well... he started drinking and focusing on his work. He never had time for me, I had to make my own meals and when I asked for permission for clubs he would just grunt. My only escape was baseball... until my dad was rushed to the hospital for overworking, he had collapsed due to exhaustion and malnutrition. He was starving himself and avoiding me, even when he came out of hospital things only got a little better, he actually talked to me sometimes and he was happy that I had something like baseball to keep me busy... he still doesn't eat that well but he doesn't starve himself like back then,"

I pull away from the hug, "let's go eat breakfast then," I smile softly grabbing his hand and pulling him off the bench, he smiles warmly at me as we walk to the canteen. When we walk in I let go of his hand to grab a tray, I go to walk over to my usual seat when I feel someone grabbing my elbow, I look behind me and I see Miyuki smirking, "you think I'll let you sit away from me? Not after what I just told you," a flicker of sadness flickered in his eyes and I walk over to his table. He sits down before me and I go around to sit where I did for dinner and Kominato starts to move since he did just sit down. Miyuki grabs my tray out of my hands and I look at him in surprise, "why did you just take my tray Miyuki!?" I ask and then he puts the tray next to him gesturing for me to sit, I take a step back a little shocked.

"So it's true? The rumours about them being together?" I flush slightly hearing people on the second and third string whispering about us, I sit down quickly while looking down. Miyuki tilts my head up with his index finger, "eat... please," he says quietly and Kuramochi drops his chopsticks. I grab my chopsticks starting to eat everything on my tray, "did... did... did you just say please!" Kuramochi shouts pointing at Miyuki in shock. Miyuki looks at him like he is insane before shaking his head. "I heard him as well Kuramochi... well done Sawamura, you got Miyuki to say one of the few words he rarely says, along with the words murderer and anything inappropriate," I look at Miyuki worried, he's looking sadly at his rice before looking at Kominato, "don't say that word!" He says with a fire in his eyes, he is really upset. I whisper in his ear, "Mikii, please eat. We have class soon," after that everything was like their normal breakfast in the crowded canteen.

Hope you enjoyed this part even if it was rather sad...