Miyuki-senpai...? (Discontinued)

Part 16- why are you scared...?

Drawing by Shayann (she's still not that used to drawing this way and her pens bled through the outline and she proper freaked... perfectionist)

Sawamura Pov

I space out looking at the clock above where we get our trays. I don't know why I'm spaced out just I am...

Bang! I jump slightly in my seat looking around frantically until I here Miyuki laughing quietly. He had put my third bowl of rice in front of me... when did he stand up to get it? He sits down next to me looking at me every few seconds while he starts eating what I presume is his third bowl of rice as well. "What scared you?" Miyuki asks as he looks at me before putting rice in his mouth. I look at his mouth a second, "I don't know..." that's a terrible lie! Of course, I know why... but I can't tell anyone. "That's a lie," Miyuki says looking in my eyes with determination. "You know why but you won't tell me," he says in a quiet and vulnerable voice. I can tell no one else heard it because if they did they would be shocked.

"I... I can't... if I tell anyone I..." I look down at my lap as I feel like I'm about to have another panic attack. Miyuki moves my head into his shoulder and rocked me back and forth slightly, "can I tell you when we are alone?" I ask feeling the threat of a panic attack subsiding. He nods his head as he moves my head off his shoulder, "you need to eat first... and I need to announce the camping trip," I look at him with slight fear in my eyes. His eyes widen understanding that it must be something about the camping trip.

I start eating quickly as he stands up walking to the front. "Will everyone please stay seated..." he starts as I drone him out. I can't... I can't deal with hearing this right now. Flashes of the woods appear in my mind... me running away from... I start crying slightly before I stand as everyone else stands up and starts talking about who they will share a tent with...

I walk towards the door slowly before Miyuki stands in my way. "Get out of my way..." I say quietly as Miyuki grabs my shoulders lightly making me look up at him in fear, "don't touch me!" I scream shaking and talking a step back. Fear in my eyes as I shake uncontrollably. Memories of the woods hit me and I grab my head pulling my hair,

A man walks towards me with a dangerous look in his eyes "please... leave me be!" I scream as I take a few steps away from him, tears rolling down my face. He walks closer as I keep walking backwards until I'm against a wall, "I just want to go home... what do you want!?" I scream at the top of my lungs as he pins me to the wall by my throat, I grab at my throat trying to stop him. "Please..." I say hoarsely.

Someone is shaking me and I continue crying, "please... don't take me there again," everyone in the hall looks at me and Miyuki who is still standing by the canteen exit. I hug him as I continue crying... Miyuki picks me up keeping me to his chest, "everything will be alright. I know you didn't mean to shout at me," he says as we leave the canteen and he keeps walking before putting me on a bench. It's one of the benches in front of the A practice field. "What happened Sawamura?" Miyuki asks as he sits down with me in his lap.

I start to tell him everything, "when I was six I was lost in the woods on a camping trip with my parents and grandad, I was so lost that when I saw a stranger digging a whole in the woods I didn't care, I just wanted to get back home or to my family. I walked up to the man and I ask him the quickest way to get back to the campsite, it was dark so when he told me I should stay with him until the morning I agreed... as soon as I was in his house he pinned me to the wall by my neck. Right there in his kitchen he... he raped me."

I stop as I try and calm my breathing, "you know I won't let you get lost. I'll be by your side the whole trip. You'll be safe, I promise," he hugs me closer as I decide that I shouldn't tell him how long the man had me... "thank you Minkii," I say as I hug him tightly moving my head onto his shoulder as he stands up and walks us back to my dorm room... practically our dorm room.

I suspect he might move back to his room after the third years graduate and the new first years start. He wouldn't want them to know straight away... I don't mind. I feel my eyes close as sleep overcomes me, seems I'll be awake early tomorrow.

I wake up to a sudden bright light and then Miyuki slams the door. "What do you think you're doing Kuramochi?" He says quietly but I can tell he is angry. I can hear Kuramochi tap the button to send... a picture! He took a picture of us!! I wiggle I little in Miyuki's arms, he puts me down on my feet and I look at Kuramochi who is holding an all to familiar phone; my phone. I snatch my phone from him looking through the messages, "what the fuck Kuramochi!" I show Miyuki a ton of photos he sent to my friend Wakana, every text she sends is about why she's being sent these and who the other guy is. Then I see her typing on the recent message and I look at it as it comes through

Wakana- is that... the catcher!? Oh my god!

Sawamura- sorry about Kuramochi texting you again...

Wakana- are you gay?!

I gulp slightly thinking of what to say.

Sawamura- yeah... I think my family figured that out after my visit to seidou... I wouldn't shut up about...

Wakana- I knew it! You never showed any interest in girls but I was never certain... is the catcher your boyfriend? Who wouldn't you shut up about? ;)

I sigh slightly looking at Miyuki before shrugging, "fuck it. She already suspects it after you sent her all those photos," I say that quietly to myself.

Sawamura- I wouldn't shut up about Miyuki Kazuya (the catcher)... and yes... he's my boyfriend

Wakana- awww, that's so sweet. Tell me how you both are getting on... if you are ever on your phone XD bye, Eijun

Sawamura- bye Wakana. I'll try and remember to text you (:

"What did she say?" Miyuki asks as he is standing next to me now. "She knows about us now... someone needs to stop sending photos and texts to my friends," I click off of my messages with Wakana and I see he sent that last photo... to everyone on the team. "What the hell Kuramochi! You sent it to the whole team?!" I shout showing Miyuki how he sent everyone the picture. It's not a bad picture but why did he feel he had the right to send that to everyone on the team... even the coach. "How did you even send it to the coach!?" I say mouth wide still angry at him.

"Can you all shut the fuck up!! I would like to sleep in peace!" Kominato is sitting up in Kuramochi's bed pretty much glaring at all of us. Yeah... I don't want to die tonight. "Goodnight," I quickly say going into my bed and Miyuki isn't far behind. We hear Kuramochi climb up the ladder and an ouch.

Kominato probably hit him over the head for his stupidity... "good job sending that to everyone though, they'll probably have it saved on their phones and probably sent it to friends in other schools. That picture will blow up..." Kominato laughs as I silently glare at where they sleep. "Go to sleep Sawamura. You went through a lot to..." I kiss him lightly stopping his sentence, "goodnight Mikii," I say before I cuddle next to him and fall asleep quickly...

What do you think? I know most wouldn't have guessed that was what happened to Sawamura, did I surprise anyone? I'm sorry that they have harsh pasta but it gives more background into who they are (: hope you enjoyed this part