Miyuki-senpai...? (Discontinued)

Part 15- a camping trip?

Sawamura Pov

Two weeks before the fall tournament begins and two days since the last part

I'm walking to the coaches office a little scared, "what did I do this time?" I whisper to myself as an arm, rests on my shoulder and around my neck. "Hm... it must have been something bad," Miyuki says with a smirk. I roll my eyes shrugging his arm off my shoulder. "So why are you here captain?" It's strange but we need to act like we are just friends for practice and when seeing the coach. People might think I was getting special treatment otherwise for dating the captain.

I get no special treatment, I'm just like everyone else in practice. There is an occasional glance he does in my direction in the bullpen. So... why is he walking with me to the coaches office? Miyuki still hasn't answered my question, "I have no idea... probably to help decide a punishment for whatever you did," he says giving me a smirk and nudging me, "what did you do?" I roll my eyes at him before we stop in front of the door of the coach's office, I knock three times before we hear a come in.

"I did nothing," I say before I walk inside and bow when I see the coach. I straighten back up looking at the coach, "Whatever I did I'll take whatever punishment you see fit," I say bowing my head. Miyuki taps my shoulder and I look at him, "I don't think you did anything wrong this time," he says with a smirk before laughing lightly at me. "Miyuki is right, you aren't in trouble. I actually called you both here about your... personal relationship," I gulp as I notice it's only the three of us here. I look at Miyuki slightly scared, he moves a bit closer to me as to comfort me.

Miyuki ruffles my hair slightly, "he won't kick us off the team, Baka. He must have known about Kuramochi and Ryo for a while, along with the others. The majority of the team is practically in relationships with others in the team," the coach smiles lightly at us as I flush slightly from realising Miyuki is most likely right. "I support all relationships in the team... just know that even if you end up breaking up you need to continue on in games as if nothing happened. Understood?" I nod quickly before yelling, "yes boss!" Miyuki rolls his eyes at me calling the coach boss.

"So... this can't be the only reason you called us both here," the coach smiles slightly before walking to his desk and pulling out a leaflet. He hands Miyuki the leaflet and he reads it quickly. "Camping?" He says confused as the coach nods his head, "it will be a great way for you all to relax before the tournament and the third years get to come as well. It will be in the middle of nowhere practically and we have booked it for everyone on the first string. Only our school and another are going to be in the same woods and it's unlikely we'll see them at all," I tilt my head slightly as he continues talking about it. Is this really a good idea? Would we get to chose who we share the tent with or will our roommate be sharing the tent with us? Would they find out about...

Miyuki shakes my shoulder a little. "You're looking really pale are you okay?"I nod my head smiling slightly, "I'm fine," he looks at me sceptically before speaking, "it's a wonderful idea. The team will love it... about the tent arrangement..." the coach cuts him off by waving his hand slightly, "you all get to decide who you share the tent with, you should bring it up at dinner. Tell the second and third string they get to go to a different camping site with Rei and coach Ochiai. They get to decide the sleeping arrangements as well," he smiles as Miyuki and I bow. "We should be going then dinner will be starting in five minutes. Is it okay if I keep this," Miyuki holds the leaflet up as he says the last part.

The coach nods and we leave the office, Kuramochi is standing against the wall, "did you both get the relationship talk?" I nod still a little shocked from being informed about our trip and how the coach accepts these types of relationships. Mainly about the trip...

"Why are you so quiet?" Kuramochi leans near me looking me in the eyes, I move my head back a bit. "Maybe I'm just hungry and I don't want to talk," I say in a quiet voice... Miyuki pulls me to his side and puts his index finger under my chin and moves my head side to side. "You're really pale as well... are you okay?" He asks with his eyes showing how concerned he truly is. "I'm fine... now let go of me," I push him lightly so I'm standing a little away from him. I just felt... so suffocated for a minute. I rub my chest a little around my collarbone feeling my breath slowing slightly.

I start walking towards the canteen my thoughts on calming my breathing. What the hell is going on with my breathing! I grip my throat lightly as I continue walking, I walk into the canteen and I grab my tray. Miyuki is likely right behind me, I had to let go of my throat to hold my tray. My breathing is shallow and sharp like I'm struggling to breathe.

I put my tray down and I stand there a couple of seconds looking at my food in disgust. I gag slightly and I cover my mouth with my right hand feeling myself about to throw up. Miyuki must have just walked to the table because I hear the flatter of his tray on the table and a hand on my shoulder. A muffled voice trying to pierce through the white noise... I continue covering my mouth closing my eyes. I place my left hand on my chest trying to calm my breathing, I feel light headed and I remove both my hands putting them on my chair to steady myself. I fall against the chair and then the white noise was gone.

The sound of everyone standing up and concerned voices. Miyuki is kneeling next to me, I look at him with tear filled eyes as I struggle to breathe. His eyes widen slightly as he pulls me against his chest standing up slowly, "it's okay... take deep breaths with me," he breaths in making me close my eyes and focus on his and my own breathing.

I still can't breathe right... "help..." I say hoarsely as a tear rolls down my left cheek. He kisses my tear away, "tell me two things you can see," he says quietly as I look around the room, "concern... food," I say quietly and I'm calming down a bit. "Now tell me three things you feel," I look at him before saying, "I feel your breathing, the floor under my shoes... your arms," I say feeling my breathing and body steady more. "Can you properly breathe again?" I nod my head a bit "I'm still struggling... a bit," he smirks lightly before kissing me.

Shock fills my body before I kiss him back and he pulls away after a couple of seconds, "how about now?" I focus on my breathing and I chuckle slightly. "Yeah, I can breathe," I say before moving my legs a little so I'll stand partially. "Are you okay Eijun!?" A few people are voicing their concern and worry as I stand in Miyuki's arms now. "I'm fine... I'm sorry for worrying you all," I bow my head slightly. "Can you put me in my seat? I don't think I can do it myself without falling..." Miyuki chuckles slightly as he puts me in my seat.

Dinner goes by smoothly after that and Miyuki kept me close by our seats and if I started shaking he would help me eat. Everyone is still extremely concerned and you can see it on some of their faces and in most of their eyes...

I'm fine... so stop worrying.

What could have caused Sawamura to have a panic attack? Any ideas? Do you think everyone will enjoy this camping experience? Will something exciting happen?