Escape to Neverland (A Peter Pan Fanfiction)

I Don't Believe In You

“Alright, we’ll talk when we get back to the hideout,” Peter said as he continued walking in front of me. Though, I didn’t move and crossed my arms. “This can’t wait, we need to talk now!” I furiously claimed. As Peter stopped, I could sense him rolling his eyes, “Okay! We’ll talk.” With that, Peter leaned against a tree, waiting for me to follow through.

However, I was pretty nervous. How would he react? I don’t want to fight Peter… Before I spoke, I uneasily paced back and forth. “Back there, when the mermaids almost drowned me...you didn’t help me at all,” Peter looked down at his feet in shame. He knew that he left me, he did it on purpose. “Steph, I can explain…” Peter sput out, but I cut him off. “You can explain? Okay...why did you leave me to die like that?! Is my life some toy you can play with? Sorry, but not everyone can live forever!” I burst in fury, I couldn’t control my anger. I had to let it all go(A/N: LET IT GO! LET IT GOOOOOO!!!!)

“No, it’s not like that at all! It’s just… It’s...I can’t…,” Peter made out as he started to come closer to me. Yet, I turned around so that my back was facing him. “No! No, just no! Don’t try to make this better or it’ll just get worse okay!” I almost yelled, “You think everything is just fun and games? I’m only human and I have feelings!” Just by saying that, I was the one that made it all worse.

“How do you think I feel?! I thought you almost died back there! I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself…,” Peter huffly said. As I looked back at Peter, I could see that his face was flustered with the color red. This was not at all what a “talk” was, this was an all out argument. “Ugh, from the moment I met you, I knew you were trouble!(A/N:Lol, I’m reciting so many song lyrics)” I shot. “You are so obnoxious, selfish, and…”

I didn’t know how to finish my sentence. “And what?!” Peter barked, our faces almost touching. Then, I found the word I was looking for. “YOU’RE SO IMMATURE. JUST GROW UP!” At that moment, I knew that I had made a huge mistake. There was no sound in the forest, it was just utter silence. To make it worse, Peter looked like he was about to cry.

“No, Peter, I didn’t mean it…” But, it was too late. Peter disappeared like a flash of light. “PETER NO!” I yelled. Then, I nonchalantly started running after him. Ugh Stephanie, this is all your fault, why did you have to say that? Why couldn’t I just use my warm fuzzies and not my cold pricklies?! Step after step, I was like a leopard. Who knew I could run for so long? Anything can happen in Neverland.

………………….

After a few miles, I had finally caught up to him. I found him sitting on a rock next to a small pond. He was just skipping rocks, he seemed really tense with each throw. I didn’t know whether to sneak up on him or to just go straight forward. “I know you’re there Stephanie,” Peter blurted. I stopped in my tracks and froze up. “How did you…” I wondered.

“I’m Peter Pan, remember?” As Peter stood up and turned around, I gasped at his puffy face. There was redness in his eyes and he looked weak, like he had his heart ripped from him. “Oh Peter, I’m sorry,” I assured. I felt like I had just swallowed a stone. “No, just stop. I don’t want your pity,” Peter rudely grunted. What have I done?! “Peter, please,” I tried to protest.

Peter just shunned me, “You don’t know how much you mean to me.” Oh God, this is gonna hurt. “No Peter, I do…” “JUST SHUT UP! YOU’VE SAID ENOUGH!” Peter affronted. I turned him into a monster, I should’ve known better. I felt like crying, but I just bit my lip and closed my eyes as I tried to hide my sorrow. “I was just a little boy when it happened,” Peter blurted. Where was this going? “I was usually bullied in school and kids would make fun of me. I would be pushed and torn up, shredded to pieces. Yet, I stayed strong,” Peter continued.

“I was strong because I had a mother.” Wait, Peter had a mother? Where is she? Question after question popped in my head, but I stayed quiet. “My mother was beautiful, smart, and kind. She was everything I wanted. Some kids hated their mother and wanted to leave them as soon as possible, but not me. I loved my mother. Until…” Then, Peter just stopped, as if he was in no man’s land… “As I came home from school, I found another boy in my bed! My mother stopped loving me and had found a replacement!”

Peter was crying again, tears were streaming out of his eyes. I just wanted to hug him and tell him everything was going to be okay. “So, I ran! I lived on the streets for weeks. I begged for food and shelter each night, but barely anyone helped. Then, I found Neverland.” Peter wheezed shedding his last tear. He suddenly wiped his wet face with his arms.

“Peter, that’s terrible,” I uttered almost tearing up myself. Peter nodded and closed his eyes. “When I found you, I was overjoyed. I thought you would help me, I thought you would be my escape from all the pain and suffering of my past. The boys are great and all but I needed real love, like the one my mother used to give me. I believed in you and you were my everything, but now I know that I was wrong.” Peter said looking deep into my eyes. I could sense misery in his voice, I felt like punching myself. “I didn’t know,” I cried. I hugged him, but he just pushed me away. “No Steph, I didn’t know. I was delusional and I thought you actually loved me back. But, I let my judgement get the best of me and… I don’t believe in you.” With that, Peter started walking in the direction of the hideout, leaving me behind.