Choices

Chapter 47

Honestly... I think I made Tyler really well! He looks like an ass but he's slowly enjoying Hope being around! The song is Can You Feel My Heart by Bring Me The Horizon!

(Hopes POV)

      A loud crash of thunder woke me from my slumber. I sit up in my bed and look around the darkroom, my eyes catching the flashing alarm clock as it reads 12:00 A.M. Great the power went out. I feel the sweat start to drip down my face, I guess sleeping in a hoodie and sweatpants in the Los Santos heat isn't the best thing to do. I swing my legs over the bed and hit something, groaning soon followed after. I lean over to the nightstand and turn on the lamp as I look over the bed and see Evan sitting up and groggily looking over at me.

      "What the hell? Evan, what are you doing in here?" I ask as I take off my hoodie so I'm now just in a black sports bra and sweatpants.

      "I know we're mad at each other... but I couldn't let you sleep alone... even if it isn't in the same bed... it's still in the same room as each other." He looks down at the ground and mumbles. 

      I sigh as I scoot off of the bed and sit next to Evan, my back against the metal frame of the bed. He moves so he's sitting next to me now, his back also against the frame. Another loud boom of thunder rings through the room, I move closer to Evan.

      "I don't like thunderstorms that much..." I quietly say. He slowly wraps an arm around my lower back as we stare ahead of us.

      "Do... do you still... love me?" Evan asks after a few moments of silence. I need to be stronger than my fear, I was the one who started the fight and hit him first. I was the one who made him go over the edge.

      "If you still love me, I still love you Evan. Although... here lately... it doesn't seem like you do." I say as I look down, scared of how he will react.

      "I haven't been a very good boyfriend to you these past few days, have I? I can see why you don't think that I do. If it makes you feel any better, I was crying like a baby to Tyler after I left your room about what I did." He admits. 

     After Evan left and I had my emotional breakdown, I got up and went to the computer to talk with Holly. We both agreed I was acting like a bitch after some convincing on her side but what Evan did was too far. Holly and I also talked about what's been happening since I woke up from the coma and caught up with one another as I ate the disgusting chicken alfredo, I had to eat something. I went to bed after an hour of talking with her and fell asleep trying not to cry after the events that occurred.

     "Please... don't try to hit me again. I don't want my fear to become reality, I don't want to be afraid of you, I just... I love you too much." I felt a lump form in my throat but I blinked away the forming tears. I looked up and there it was, the small fist-sized hole in the wall.

     "I regretted it as soon as I threw the punch. I wasn't thinking, I just... I don't know what I was doing... I don't want you to see that side of me ever again, you deserve better Hope, much much better, and I plan on giving it to you. It was our first fight... and I reacted badly to it." He says as he turns to look at me.

     "Did you and Sydnee ever fight?" I ask turning to him. He lets out a chuckle as he sucks air in through his teeth.

     "Every day we either bickered back and forth with one another or we were yelling and arguing with one another. 'Evan why don't you get me this.' 'You mean I have to get this by myself?" 'Why can't you just be a normal human and not be a fucking gang member.' Or my favorite one that she's said to me, 'You're so much better than this, you have all of this money to buy me and you things, but yet you still want to go out and kill people instead of spend time with the girl who's going to be there for you when the guys turn their backs on you.'" He says in a mocking voice. Why did he stay with her if she treated him so poorly?