Choices

Chapter 11

The song is True Love ft. Lilly Allen and it's by P!nk! I thought it went well with the chapter.

(Hopes POV)

     It's been five days now, and Brian still hasn't woke up. Every day since Brian was in the hospital all the guys came to visit as long as they could before going back to their places, only to come back the next day. Evan actually took me back to my house so I can collect clothes and anything else that I wanted because he didn't know now how long this heist was going to take. He even let me call Autumn to tell her that I was okay, of course, I couldn't say who I was with or where I was but it was still good to hear her voice.

     Over the 5 day period, I got to know all the guy's gang names as well as attempt to get on their good side. It only worked with Evan, Moo, Nogla, Lui, and Basically. Craig was still cold with me and Wildcat and Delirious still wanted me to die. During the hospital visits and the overnights, I was always around Evan and that made him and I grow a little closer. Maybe that's why Craig's been acting like he's on his period.

     While I was talking with Moo and Nogla about some car that I wanted, the double doors leading back into the hospital opened and a doctor walked out looking down at a clipboard with a couple loose papers on it.

     "Is Hope De Santa in here?" He looks around the waiting room and asks. The guys look at me as I stand up and walk to him.

     "Yeah is it about Brian?" I ask him. He nods his head and asks me to follow him. 

     I look back at the guys as Evan gives me a confused look. I shrug my shoulders as I didn't know why Brian wanted me to see him first out of anyone else. I followed the doctor through the maze of the hospital as we stopped at a door. He knocks a couple of times on the door before opening it up and letting me inside. I walk in but the doctor doesn't, he closes the door and walks away. 

     I look at Brian as he's laying on his side he holds a pillow up against his face his eye that I can see barely open. I go and grab the chair that's closest to him and scoot it so it's right next to the bed and sit in it.  He looks up at me and gives me a weak smile.

    "I wouldn't shut up about seeing you since yesterday and they finally let me see you." He says softly, his voice raspy. I smile at him.

     "You look as bad as I did when I fell out of the car when we were running away from the cops after the failed robbery," I say. He cracks a smile and lets out a chuckle.

     "No, I look fucking much better than you did trust me. The road burn was horrendous." He says, again chuckling. I grab onto his hand that's closest to me.

     "Even at near-death you still have to poke jokes at me, you're such an ass." I laugh as he sighs. He turns so he's laying on his back now and see why he was laying on his side. The whole right side of his face was almost gone and metal took its place which was once bone and flesh, he had a pure red eye instead of the other blue one. I was too shocked to even say anything,

     "It was the best that they can do to me. It was either that or leave me with parts of my face missing and horribly burnt. I figured I had a shot with this at least." He admits while letting out a sigh.

     "You look like a cyborg now. I like it, now police will have a better time finding out who you are instead of looking for a hideous looking creature." I was able to say as I came out of shock. He sits up and starts laughing.

     "Says the girl who was obsessed with my good looks and how badass I was." He throws back at me. I let go of his hand now and look away from him.

     "I think my visiting time is over I'm leaving." I joke as I get up. He grabs onto my arm to prevent me from going. I laugh as I sit back down and lay my head on the rail of his bed. He turns his head so he's looking at me now.

     "Why did you want me to see you first out of everyone else?" I ask him. He shrugs his shoulders and continues to look at me.

     "I wanted to make sure that you were doing okay. I don't know... during surgery I had this dream that you were like upset like... really upset about what happened and after seeing me we got back together." He says casually. My heart picked up at hearing 'got back together' but my brain was shutting it down.

     "I'll admit I was upset about what happened, but seeing you better and still making jokes makes it better honestly," I say. He turns on his side again and moves closer to me. I started to feel like myself again, knowing that Brian was going to be okay.

     "I miss us, Hope. Being alone with my thoughts and that dream really made me think about what I did to you. I feel like an absolute asshole about it, I honestly do. I miss doing stupid shit with you and our criminal shenanigans, I miss seeing the love that you had for me in your eyes. I threw away two years of our relationship over some random girl that I didn't even know. I feel like an asshole." He says. 

     Before I could even being a thought process on what to respond, the door opened up and the guys all piled in all smiling and laughing, saying Brians awake. I look at him again as he smiles at his friends. I get my head off of the rail and stand up from my seat and taking a step back so everyone can surround him and see his new facial feature.

     While everyone talked with Brian, I started to think about what he said. All the memories that I had of Brian and I always seemed like bad ones. Either with us arguing or fighting with each other, but when I actually think about it, those arguments or fights hardly ever happened. We spent any and every chance that we had together, hell he was the one who bought me my car. We even went to Vice City together last summer for two weeks. He introduced me to Autumn and Jell, we got our first tattoo together, we stayed at the beach all day and night with each other. He was my best friend before we even started dating. I only remembered the fights because of how big they were. I only remembered the arguments because of what he called me in the moment of them. Tears were now forming in my eyes as I push my way through the group of guys.

     "I have to take a smoke break. I have to get out of this cramped room." I finally push past Wildcat and open the door so I can get out of the cramped room. I slam it behind me as I shakily go back towards the front of the building.