Shattered

Nine

The syndrome...

It tortures you in unimaginable ways.

It's like an intoxicating, addictive drug.

Once you get addicted there's no telling what's next.

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My ears were ringing as his words echoed in my ears.

I couldn't believe he was suggesting, asking me for sex in our relationship.

Who the fuck does that?

Sorry, I know a lot of people do.

But still, it doesn't mean I wanna do that.

This is one of the major reasons why I've been staying away from relationships.

I had told him no that we're going to do VTM(Virgin till marriage) and he had stood up and driven away.

I felt slightly bad but I wasn't going to lose my virtue just to make him happy.

Oh, how fucking wrong was I.

I stayed in the shop waiting eagerly for mom to arrive so I could go home when I saw his car drive by.

He barely glanced at me unlike before when he'd honk or pull over.

I felt a painful twist in my heart.

What's happening?

Why is my chest closing up?

OMG!!! My checks are getting wet.

WTF is wrong with me?

I could feel the painful squeeze of my heart as he drove past without acknowledging my presence.

Before I could stop myself, I grabbed my phone to call him.

My head was saying no but the painful squeeze in my chest said yes.

I dialed his number.

On the third ring, he picked up the call.

"Yeah, hello," he said over the phone.

My heart hurt more.

Unlike before when he'd say "hey, babe."

"I'm sorry," I croaked out.

"About what?" He still sounded foreign.

I broke down.

First time in my entire life crying over the phone because of a guy.

"Baby, I'm sorry ok," I cried, "I didn't mean to turn you down I'm just scared a...and i...vv...ve never done it before but I love you."

The words escaped my mouth without my knowledge.

"I love you too baby, stop crying ok I'm coming over now," he replied.

Finally, this is my baby's voice.

"Ok, love," I smiled.

"Yeah, I don't want you to ever shed a single tear ok," he continued.

"OK", I nodded and waited for him.

No sooner had the call ended that he drove by and pulled over.

"Talk to me love," he commanded.

"I'm still a virgin and my mom always tells us that once a guy gets in between your legs he would dump you and go," I ranted, "I don't want you to leave me and I'm scared that you'll leave me."

"Don't worry, love. I'll never leave you," he promised.

Oh, sweet promises...

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