Shattered

Seveenteen

The darkest part of midnight is shortly before dawn but most times I wonder if I'll ever experience dawn.

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You know how you've built all your life around that special someone who means the world to you even more than your own family I know that's messed up but that's the kind of world we live in and everything is so messed up.

But the funny thing is, if ever I was given a second chance to start life afresh I'd want to forever remain a baby in my mother's arms still suckling at her breast and not ready to let go anytime soon because I know she won't let any harm come to me.

But alas! There are no second chances just multiple times to make up for the mistakes and each time I keep getting it wrong and that alone hurts me more than a broken heart!!

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... Devil himself."

I glanced up from my book hurriedly and saw the familiar black car pull to a stop in front of the shop.

I felt a gnawing feeling not knowing what he wanted from me now and why he was even here.

I watched his every movement like a hawk waiting to swoop down on its prey except here I'm acting like the prey.

"What are you doing here?" His question wasn't directed to me but to the person behind me.

"Oga boss!" Ugo hailed him before stepping out to greet him properly. I wasn't really hearing anything they were saying again so I focused back on my story.

"How are you?" I looked up from my book and saw him standing in front of me looking concerned?

"What?" I was at loss of what to say because I promised myself to stay away from him and now he's asking me how I'm doing I mean is this the devil's way of pranking me this morning!

"I'll be leaving now just wanted to check up on you and know how you're faring." And just like that he turned on his heels and walked out, entered his car and drove off with Ugo.

O...okay, what just happened guys I'm confused so tell me what the fuck is going on here!!

Remember no thinking about him, you promised mom --- that's logical mind speaking.

Unfortunately I've got a lovestruck mind too. Just give him a call you have the small phone.

And I've also got control over my own mind. Shut up all of you!

It's official, I'm loosing my mind since I'm now having an internal conversation in my mind and waging war in my mind but oh well who cares I mean try sleeping with a broken heart.

Ignoring everything going on in my mind I focused on reading the novel but I still couldn't concentrate.

The rest of the day passed by agonizingly slow and very boring and by evening Ugo was back to the shop again. I wasn't interested in continuing the conversation with him so we just chatted about other things.

My dilemma came when I had closed the shop and wondered if I should call him or not. He drops me off each time I close so today I decided I won't call him.

Trekking with Ugo acting as my guard and companion it wasn't long and I got to my junction, boarded a tricycle and he even payed my fare.

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Home...

It's a place you seek refuge from the entire world but is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone?