big hands tiny hands || choi soobin

part 25

"I don't know. Do you?"
You flinched, when a voice suddenly appeared behind you. He walked closer to you. You turned around seeing Soobin. "Wh- what are you doing here? That late at night?" "I could ask you the same question. I showed you this place. I came here, to think. To clear my mind. To understand what I want. To- to..." "can i sit here?", he asked. You nodded and he sat down next to you, looking at the blinking stars. You glanced over to him. "What?", he looked to you and smiled. "Nothing."
"Soobin. I- I can't think right when you're staring at me." "I'm sorry. What are you thinking about?", his modulated voice gave you different feeling. "I- I want to get my mind clear. I wanna know what we are, Soobin." You turned to him, looking at him; seeing his sharp contours in the dim light of the moon. "I- I like you. I really like you. And- I-", you sighed, letting your head droop.

"I know what I want, y/n. I exactly know what i want. I'm just- I'm afraid of the peoples' reaction and what they will think about. But the only I thing I want is. Is you. I want YOU y/n", he came closer to you, sitting only an inch away, getting lost in your big sparkling eyes. Those words. Hearing those words from him, transferred your body into a shock. Not any word could escape your mouth; your whole body was shaking. "y/n? What do I mean to you?", he asked serious. You stayed silent.

"y/n? y/n is everyth-" you cut him off, when you put your hands on his cheeks, placing your lips on his, whereupon he replied the soft kiss. Closed eyes; his arms grabbing your waist, pulling you closer to his body. Your body felt light as a feather. Letting his sweet plump lips go, you rest your forehead on his, your breath synchronised. "So, what does that mean? I'm bad at reading people", Soobin whispered. You smiled benignly. "yes." "Yes, what?" His answer made you chuckle. "yes, you don't need to ask. I want you Soobin."

Your words let a big smile appear on his face. You never saw him that happy. "I'm glad i met you." "I'm glad, you bumped into me", you said before his pink lips connected with yours again. Everything just felt better. Felt happier. It felt right. His arms clutching your waist. Smelling the sweet scent of him; only hearing his breath and the rustling of your two jackets, when he tightened up his grip. His lips, harmonising with yours perfectly, literally craving for you, showing you how much he longed for this moment. He pecked your lips twice before he let go of it. None of your faces were red because of embarrassment. The both of you were thoroughly happy, realising, that you finally have what you want. "So... would- would you- like to be-" "Soobin. Stop talking. I already said yes." "Saying yes to what?", he asked interested. "Saying yes to be your girlfriend." "Oh uhm... that's also fine." "Hey, did you want to ask something different?"

He laughed and his cute smile made you smile instantly. "No. I just wanted to see tease you." "Yaah Soobin. Don't be mean." "I'm just teasing you. I could never be mean to you. You are my first girlfriend. I know that i'm not your first one, but I want to be the only one for you", his fingers stroke over your cheek, making you raise a smile. "I have one question. Do you still want it to keep it as a secret in school? You wanna tell it the boys right? What about your parents?" Soobin let the questions quickly run through his head. "well... I'm just afraid about their reactions and their opinions, because I don't need to hear what they think about... us. Of course the boy should know it and I want to tell it my parents. But would you mind, if we not tell it everyone in school or like showing it everybody?" He looked down to his feet. "Soobin. It's totally fine. If you don't want it, then it's totally okay for me", you put a hand under his chin, lifting it, letting your eyes meet. "Thank you", he whispered with a smile and placed his lips on yours again.

"We should go home now. It's very late and tomorrow, no, today is school and we need to sleep", Soobin explained and stood up. You agreed and you got home. You said goodbye and got in your cars, driving in different directions. When you got home, you jumped under the shower and after, right in your bed. Charging your phone, you got a message.

Finally Friday. Yay-day. 07th December. Waking up. Getting out of bed. Getting ready for school. Standing in the kitchen, you made some coffee and french toast. "Good morning honey", you heard your dads' voice, greeting you. "Oh hi dad." "Oh what a great breakfast. For what do I deserve that?" "Well, I'm a nice daughter. And there is actually something I have to tell you." "Oh okay. Tell me. Could you already figure out, what you want?" "Uhm... yes. I did. And let's say, that Soobin will come more often to our house." Your dad looked surprised. "Oh, does it mean that you- you are now together? Like you and 'you know who' were?" You gave him a little angry but also sad glance. "Sorry, i didn't know that this topic is still a No-Go." "It's fine. Well... it's better. He is someone special." "Hmm. You're right. Soobin is someone; someone individual. A pure soul. Very different to, you know who. Anyways, i'm happy for both of you. I like him. He is competent. You match perfectly", he gave you wink. "Thanks dad", your were all smiles.

"Oh, gotta go. Soobin is here. Bye dad." "Bye little bug. Have fun in school and have fun with Soobin." "Thanks dad, bye." You left the house, heading to Soobins car. "Hey." "Good morning y/n", he answered. You sat down, closed the cars door and buckled the seatbelt. Looking up, Soobin attacked you with a sweet kiss on your lips, his strong hands holding your cheeks gentle. "Oh, what was that for?", you asked surprised. "Just for seeing you." You smiled and your cheeks got a soft pink note. He drove quickly to taehyun, who was already waiting outside. You picked him up and got to school. Doing exercises, writing texts, thinking about the right vocabs you should use for this sentence. Period after period. Lunch break. Beomgyu, Taehyun and you were already in the canteen, sitting at your table, waiting for the other boys to join. "Uhm guys?", you asked.

"What do you wanna tell us y/n?" You laid down the fork and leaned your elbows on the table. "I don't know how to start it and i'm bad in these kind of things. Anyways... I just wanted to tell you, because Soobin tells the other two. It's nothing big and I hope you don't tell others, because Soobin isn't comfortable with it when everybody knows it." "Don't worry y/n. We don't do things that could be uncomfortable for any of us. So tell us now." "Okay, well... Soobin and I are together now." The boys' chin fell down. "NO WAY REALLY?" Reading from their mimics, you could definitely say that they were happy. You nodded. "But I don't want that that changes anything about our group. Like, the way you see us or the topic we talk about. Do you know what I mean?" The boys nodded. "Not like sitting there and waiting that you two hold hands and completely freak out because you are so cute?" "Exactly", you laughed about Beomgyus example.

"Don't worry y/n. Soobin and you will be the exact same friends for us. We won't see or treat you different." With that sentence, Yeonjun, Hueningkai and Soobin appeared. "hey guys." They sat down. You were sitting between Hueningkai and Soobin; in front of you Beomgyu, Taehyun and yeonjun next to him. You all enjoyed your lunch. "Aaahh that was too much food", you hugged your tummy and rested your head on the shoulder next to you. Soobins shoulder. You closed your eyes, rubbing your tummy. Your sudden action made him wince a bit, but after seeing your cute face, he just smiled. "What?", Soobin asked, when all the boys looked at you two. "Uhmm nothing", they said in once and focused back on their food. "You are cute", Beomgyu said, before taking a big bite from his pizza. "Yeah, thanks. But don't-" "yeah, we know. We won't tell someone. It's not like, that y/n didnt act like that before when she ate too much, so people won't think about you too."

Even if you can't be as close to soobin in school as normal, you can at least do some little things leaning your head on his shoulder or hugging him, cause you did that already before.