HEALING WITH LOVE

PART 21

They drove back home it was 12 : 00 , when they reached home....they were not tired but hungry.... They wanted to talk a lot.....

Sid - Ek kam karte h.... Phle shower lete h.... phir yeh pav bhaji aur vada pav khayenge.....tab tak mein chai bhi rakh deta hu....

Sana - Good idea...vese bhi beach ki ret lagi  chipki hui h....we should definitely talk bath...mein atti hu...

Siddharth and shehnaaz went to their respective rooms to talk bath.... Siddharth came out first and made tea.... shehnaaz came downstairs after few minutes and Siddharth already warmed food and made tea....

Sana - sorry mein late ho gyi.... Tumne toh phle hii sab kuch kar lia....

Sid - koi baat nhi kon sa chapan bhog bnaya h khana garam kia h aur chai hi toh bnai h...
Chlo khana kha lete h...

Sana - haan mujhe bukh lagi h bht zyada....

Sid - aur phir humein Baki batein bhi puri krni jo adhuri rh gyi h....

They both passed a smile and had food and tea and then put their dishes in sink after eating.....and wash their hands....

Sid - mummm.... Kare start batein....

Sana - haan mein bhi yhi bolne vali thi.... Ek kam krte h tumhare room mein chlte h jhaa tumne apni girlfriend ko chupa rkha h....

Siddharth laughed at this ..

Sid - bas bas meri koi girlfriend nhi h...abhi chle...

They both entered his room which was shockingly clean rather than other boys...which are messy....

Sid - esse kya dekh rhi ho ? Phli baar toh nhi dekh rhi tum mera room...

Sana - voh actually mujhe nhi laga tha kissi ladke ka room itna clean bhi ho skta h voh bhi apni mom ki absence mein....

Sid - abhi kuch der phle hii tumne khaa tha na ki sab ladke same nhi hote.... Chlo take a seat mein washroom hoke atta hu....

Siddharth went to washroom and shehnaaz sat at the edge of bed with both legs up and folded.....Her eyes fell on the diary she gifted to him which was kept sneakily under the pillow...... she was happy that he is writing in the diary ...... Siddharth came back and settled opposite to her....so that she could face her....

There was a complete silence for a moment and Siddharth started....

Sid - shehnaaz.... ( Shehnaaz intrupted )

Sana - Sana.... Aab se tum mujhe sana bulaoge....mere friends aur close ones mujhe sana bulate h toh tum bhi mujhe sana bulao....

Siddharth smiled and was a expression of disbelief.....

Sid - Tum jadoogarni ho kya ? Tumhe ptaa h mein abhi kya khne ja rha tha.....

Sana - kya ??

Sid - mein yeh khne vala tha ki tum meri baat as doctor nhi as friend sunno.....and tumne yeh baat bol dii toh mujhe yeh bolne ki zaroorat bhi nhi h shayad.....

Sana - of course !!!!

Sid - so the date was October 25 th and mera show bht achaa chl rha tha.... I was very friendly with everybody and our show was going on high charts TRP was very good but the director decided to replace the lead co actress kyuki uska behaviour was non tolerable for everyone.....set p kabhi time p na anna..... shot dete time drama.... Alcohol and party was her favourite thing....Her name was Jhanvi Malhotra.... uska already nam khrab ho chuka tha.... director ne usko replace krne ka decide krlia tha....taki zyada drama na ho toh director ne bola tha we can either keep her or me..... Aur mujhe yeh baat smjha dii thi....ki He is going to lie taki voh koi drama na kare..... She was out and everything but she was getting anywork yeh mujhe confirm toh nhi ptaa shayad usse laga ki meri vjh se uski yeh halat h..... so she called me once I was shooting and wanted to be friends and all of that I couldn't say no because voh Nisha jisse mein uss time par date kr rha tha voh uski friend thi..... Toh I decided to call her in my vanity.... because mera schedule vese bhi bht tight tha I couldn't leave the set..... she came and just started smudging her make up and tearing her clothes.... making sounds and sabko esse depict kia jese mene uske sath kia h kuch.....

Siddharth had tears in his eyes and shehnaaz just took his hand and placed between hers as a sign that I am with you....

Sid ( continue ) - sab ne obviously usko believe kia ki mene uske sath kuch galat kia h..... Articles... newspapers...news channels vhi sab prove kr rhe th btaa rhe th jo mein kabhi sapne mein bhi nhi soch skta krne ki....
I stopped working kyuki jha jata tha people use to just start gossiping about me being a something that I am not..... And of course Nisha ko kabhi mujh par trust nhi tha toh of course ..... Women power and femenism.... Took all over and usne bhi media k saamne Jhanvi ki side ki and obviously we broke up...and I couldn't cope with this..... And aaj jo hu tumhare saamne hu....

Siddharth was crying like a baby.... shehnaaz stood and hugged him and she was holding hia head and he was holding her waist....

Sana - I won't stop you for crying.... please cry.... Tumne ek saal se bhare hue h yeh asso let them flow.... You will feel better.....

After about 20 minutes of crying he stopped and saw how shehnaaz was holding him like a baby..... He was liking it but at the same time was embarrassed as well....

Siddharth separated himself from her and she swipe his tears from cheeks from her hands and sat down at same place.....

Sid - I am sorry mujhe esse bachoo ki trah nhi rona chaiye tha tumhare saamne..... it's so embarrassing.....

Sana - No it's not..... Ansuo pe kya age parameter ka label h.... Ki sirf itne se itne age vale hi bhaa skte h..... This is human emotion aur yeh natural h..... Haan tumne natural behaviour ko control krne ki koshish krne ki tabhi tumhara yeh haal hua.... Vese bhi ek saal se dbaa k rakhe th achaa hua nikal dia....

Sid - tum intni understanding kyu ho ?

Sana - kya karu ek toh proffesion kuch essa upar se tum kuch non understanding....ek ko toh understand krna padega.... remember marriage.... relationship and all......

Sid - yaa yaa I remember.... Vese mujhe abhi bhi kuch ajeeb sa lag rha h..... I feeling very light no doubt....but kuch h jo abhi bhi h

Sana - voh tumhara dar h ki khi essi situation dubara ho gyi toh....yeh bhi Normal h tumhare case mein balki yeh vese bhi normal h....

Sid - mtlb...??

Sana - jab kissi ka hath jal jata h khana bnate waqt ... Usse dar lagta h na ki khii yeh dubara na ho jaye.... Vhi dar h aur chinta mat karo... I promise mein sab thik kardungi.....

Sid - really ??

Sana - yaa really !! Aab so jaate h raat kafi ho gyi h..... Gud night.....

Sid - Good night....

Shehnaaz left for her room and slept peacefully and Siddharth was in his room still awake..... He was not able to sleep today the reason was happiness and peace.. finally !!

Siddharth took his diary and started writing in it......

Siddharth's Diary  : -

Today I feeling really different.....vese toh har baat apni nayi dost se kr hi li h.... Shehnaaz se I mean sana se dono hii nam uski tarah khubsoorat h.....but sabse zyada khubsoorat h voh h uska dil..... Bht achaa lagta h jab apki koi baat sunta h apko bina judge kiee....hum sab ko apni life mein koi na koi ek essa insan chaiye hota h jo sirf hamari baat suune bina humme judge kiee....bina koi advice dia....lekin jab voh advise bhi deti h I feel nice...aaj usse saari baat btadi usne ek baar bhi mujh par na doubt kia na kuch essa sawal pucha jo mujhe hurt kree.... She says " I feel safe " with you to me but ek admi k liye yeh kehna bht understatement hoga that " I feel safe with her " I think uske sath mujhe koi mentally.... emotionally harm nhi karega.... I know voh hamesha samajh jati h ki mein nervous ho jata hu.... Aur itni achii trh sambhal leti h..... Usne kha mujhe daar h kuch chizoo ka haan h lekin sabse bdaa dar yeh h ki jab mera treatment over ho jayega voh chalijayegi vapis..... Lekin mein usse kahi nhi janne dunga.... Bht muskil se ek essa dost mila h jo mujhe bina kahe that I understand.... Actually understand krta h.....

T.B.C