Love and Hate ‒ ʰᶦᵗᵒˢʰᶦ ˢ.

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⚠ tw: angst, mentions of death

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JUNE 11, 20XX

DEAR ERI.

You have been the greatest bundle of hope I ever held on to. There is not a day that you fail to make me smile and there will never be a time in my life that I wish for a better sister. I apologize if sissy has a big problem that she won't be able to solve now and she's sorry if she will ever cause you pain for what she is about to do. Eri, please continue to be a great daughter, sister, friend, and family to everyone. I'm so glad that despite the so many shortcomings of your life, you continue to show us what big of a heart you have.

I know, right now, this would probably make no sense in your head. But when you grow older and when you finally understand it, I hope you will be able to forgive me. Eri, you always made me feel like any star is within reach. You showed me that making other people proud was such an easy task as long as you kept a smile on your face.

But Eri, let me be the first to tell you that sometimes, stars don't matter. Your good marks don't matter unless you are happy with it. Numbers do not define your own choices and emotions. And other people's pressures on you should not be the reason why you choose to do things you are not happy with. I want you to know that I would rather have you chase what you want to do in life—the things that truly make you who you are—than see you have the same fate as me.

Do not spiral down the same ideologies I grew up in.

My heart will always be itching to see you succeed, little sis! Thank you for being supportive towards my goals and dreams. Thank you so much for being there whenever I need you—whenever I need a shoulder to cry on. And even though you don't understand most of my woes, you still bring me tissues whenever I need them. Thank you for being that warm blanket on a cold Christmas evening. Thank you for being the breeze that calms me down or for being the foundations that make a building steady.

Thank you for being my little sister.

Eri, please continue to smile and always remember that;

Big Sis loves you very much.

YOURS TRULY,
LOVE