Lie To Me ✔️

3 | Dropped me

You forgot.

It was our anniversary and you forgot.

The hand that once held the flowers was now gripping onto my chest. I wanted the pain to radiate out of my fractured heart. I wanted—

No

— I needed the pain to lay on the palm of my hand so I could simply drop it and forget it all. Oh, how I wanted to forget.

Maybe if I had forgotten the way my chest ached and cried my sight wouldn't be so blurry while I stared at our picture that stayed pinned on your wall.

Your eyes shined the brightest and your smile smiled the widest as we stared at each other with so much love. We were so happy Jennie.

What happened?

"Lisa?"

Is what I heard from your door. It was Rosé again, followed along with Jisoo. And did you know what they asked me Jennie? It was the same question they always seemed to ask.

"Why do you keep doing this to yourself?"

And you know what I said?

I said, "Would it sound pathetic if I said it's because I love her so damn much?"

I love you so much Jennie. But as I stared at your empty, silent room and looked down at the deserted flowers on your floor, anger suddenly grew. Anger took control of my heart and mind.

That anger kicked your flowers away from my sight.

How could I stare at the damaged flowers when they were meant for you instead of the damn floor Jennie?

That said anger clashed with the sadness. And the mixture of the two manipulated my voice in finally admitting that I knew you were cheating.

"I know! It's fucking pathetic! Here I am cleaning up her mess while he's probably taking off her dress!" I shouted so loud that I could feel my own voice echoing horridly in my ears. My body trembled in agony while I continued to clean your room in such haste.

Seeing your clothes scattered around broke me even more. Your room would look like this whenever you struggled to find a perfect outfit. You also only did that when you were desperate to look cute. And, as I can see, you weren't trying to look cute for me.

Why Jennie?

You had my heart in your hands.

You were suppose to cherish it, but you were careless.

You left it somewhere and lost it completely. And the worst part of it all, you never bothered to search for it. Instead, you searched for another heart to replace it with. You searched for another kind of love that I could never give you.

Jisoo and Rosé suddenly held me. They held me and comforted me.

Jisoo said, "It's okay to cry. You've held it in for too long."

And I did.

I cried so hard. I allowed my pain to finally be presented for the world to witness.

But, maybe world wasn't a proper term. Why? Because I saw you as my world Jennie, and you weren't there to watch me crumble.

My throat ached with the way my sobs forced its way out. My body trembled in their arms. This pain was uncontrollable and it only grew by the sound of your voice suddenly echoing in the house.

"I'm back! I forgot my wallet!"

I use to feel pleasurable chills flow through with just the mere sound of your voice.

And now?

All I felt was that repetitive word that never left my heart,

Pain.

It was excruciating.

I needed it to end.

So, composing myself and wiping away the stray tears, I looked at my favorite duo and said,

"I don't want to see her. Make sure she doesn't enter my room."

I couldn't face you in this state, this vulnerable state. I didn't want you to see, but would you have cared if you did? Would you notice me again?

I went to leave your room but before I did, I removed our promise ring. I stared at its beauty and it stared right back. But the longer I stared the more the pain grew, so, I dropped it right next to the flowers.

I dropped it the way you unconsciously dropped me Jennie Kim.