Lie To Me ✔️

4 | I'm letting you go

I wondered if you ever thought of me when he looked at you the way that I do. When he kissed you, did his lips fit and move perfectly against yours? Would you shiver when he touched you? Would you feel safe every time he held you?

More importantly,

Would you love him the way you loved me? Maybe even more?

I said loved because I knew your heart didn't beat for me anymore.

Without waiting another moment I left your room. The room had no meaning to me anymore. We shared so many memories and with each passing days, those memories slowly dissolved into nothing. And I think that's what my love felt to you, nothing.

I felt my body brush against your side as I made my way to my own room. That simple touch hurt me more than you could imagine because realization suddenly dawned on me.

I wasn't the only one affected by your touch. He probably was too.

When I entered my room, I hoped to have escape just for a while but you were knocking on my door, calling for me. Why were you asking if I was okay? Why force yourself to act this way when you felt the opposite?

Why hurt me even more?

Please don't act like you care.

"She doesn't want to see you Jennie." It was Jisoo who said that. Her voice was so cold that it was deemed to be ghostly to me. Never had I ever heard Jisoo speak so angrily, especially to you Jennie. You're her best friend.

"And why not? Come on Lisa, open up!"

Why were you so relentless?

"Unnie Stop. You need to leave. Weren't you suppose to be with Kai?" This time, it was Rosé speaking so harshly. I could tell you were surprised because I was as surprised as you. Rosé wasn't known to be so upset with any of us, let alone you. Venom was laced into her tone and I couldn't help but shiver.

I could hear you explaining your reasoning but Jisoo seemed to have little patience for you so, to my displeasure, she cut you off,

"Lisa knows."

It grew silent. You grew silent.

The truth was out.

I wondered, if this confrontation hadn't occurred yet, would you still have deceived me and led my heart into destruction? A destruction that is far worse than it already is?

Would you stay with me even when you no longer loved me?

I heard you, you stuttered nervously. You seemed to be feigning confusion and this time, I no longer had the will or patience to hear anymore. And so, before anyone else had the chance to get a word out, I opened the door, facing the cause of my aching heart.

"Lisa," you said, guilt swimming in the eyes that I could never stop dreaming about. I wanted to drown in your eyes and never resurface because then I wouldn't have to feel the knife you stabbed into my back.

I could only stare at you blankly. A stare you have never received from me and that said stare of mine turned the guilt in your eyes into fear.

"Girls, can you excuse Jennie and I for a moment? Her and I need to talk. It won't take too long." I stated, never removing my cold, blank eyes away form the fearful feline ones. Could you feel the end nearing Jen? Because I did.

I didn't wait for their reply, I simply walked back into my room and sat on the edge of my bed. My eyes were casted down to the floor, watching as your feet slowly and timidly entered my eyesight. They shifted in discomfort as the deafening silence strangled the both of us.

I felt your eyes burning the top of my head, waiting.
You tried asking me what I needed to tell you but I instantly cut you off with the words I never knew or believed I was ever going to say to you,

"I'm letting you go."