Lie To Me ✔️

10 | Move on

~Double update~

My voice was calm when I greeted him and my eyes were dull when I noticed a bouquet of flowers in his hands.

Roses.

I wanted to laugh in mockery. You preferred the star shaped flowers, Hyacinth. Those were the flowers of your birth month, how could he not know?

But, instead of closing the door on the man that stole my life, I simply opened it. I allowed him into our dorm, just the way I allowed you to continue on with the deceit.

You weren't home is what I told him. You were out grocery shopping with Rosé and Jisoo. He didn't mind waiting. But I minded.

How could I do this to myself? How could I sit with the man that touched you? That kissed you? And that loves you the way that I do?

I wished I had the answers.

"So, you know everything that's been going on between me and Jennie?"

Is what he asked me. His tone sent an uncomfortable chill to run down my spine. It was filled with ridicule. Was he trying to assert his dominance and stare at me as if I was nothing? If so, he was failing miserably.

"I think you already know the answer to that."

I said, voice as bland as it could be. I refused to show him the damage he had done to me. He had no right to win this battle.

He chuckled and placed the roses on the table, purposely showing what I can no longer do for you anymore,

"You know, I always wondered what you felt when you knew she came home with me on her mind. Hurt? Betrayed? Angry?"

I could feel my nails piercing the palm of my hand. I tried transferring the sharp ache in my heart towards the skin of  hand. I didn't care if I damaged it. It was better than a damaged heart right?

I remained silent.

"Maybe all of the above? I mean, how could you not?" I watched him pause and lean forward on the table across from me with that same menacing smirk. "You did smell my cologne on her I'm assuming?"

I leaned forward too, "You assumed correctly, but maybe you should change your cologne brand. The smell isn't too favorable around here. It's pretty distasteful if you asked me."

It was my turn to smirk. You should've seen the annoyance burning in his eyes Jennie, it was quite entertaining. But, then, a flicker of excitement filled his eyes and the smirk unfortunately returned.

"The mark on her neck was pretty distasteful as well right? I'm sorry about that, I didn't mean to go that far."

I grew silent again.

"We were just stuck in the moment. You've had those moments with her before so you must understand."

This is who you love now? When did an egotistical prick become your type? When were you ever attracted to someone as pretentious as him? I'm disappointed in you Jennie.

"You don't have to worry though, I promise I'll—."

"I'm not worried."

I cut him off. I could no longer handle the truth that was said out in the open.

"I'm not worried about anything. What you and her do is none of my business. She's a big girl, she can handle herself."

His eyes widened in surprised and disappointment. Guess it wasn't the reaction he was hoping for. What did he want? Did he want me to break because I was already broken. Nothing he can do can make matters worse.

"I'm not the jealous type Kai. You and Jennie can do as you please. She's not mine anymore."

Strangely enough, at that same moment a small shuffle of a footstep was made from behind Kai. It was the girls and you. I knew you were standing there for a while now. That's why I had to cut him off. I didn't want you to hear what he was saying about you.

Thankfully Kai didn't hear you. I knew you girls wanted to hear more of what I had to say. You guys were always pretty nosey. So, I slowly stood up and stared down at that man that stole my happiness away.

"You make her happy and that's what I want for her. That's all I've ever wanted for her. And, I can see you've been taking better care of her than I ever did."

"That's not true."

It was you that spoke this time. Kai suddenly stood up and looked at you. I stared at him and watched his demeanor change. His body softened and his eyes screamed something oh so familiar to me. He looked at you the way I did. He truly did love you.

"You two look good together. I wish nothing but the best for you guys. But, a word of advice Kai,"

I stopped and took the roses off the table. I stared down at the red color and wanted to scowl but I remained firm and blank. And I walked to you, never flickering my sight at anything but you. You looked nervous and I watched you tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

That use to be my job.

"Hyacinth is her favorite flower."

Is what I told him before I handed the roses to you and walked away. But, you gripped onto my wrist and when I faced you, all I saw in your eyes was longing. It was the kind of longing I know I'll forever feel when I look at you with him.

And, what I told you caused a tear to trickle down your cheek. It was something you weren't prepared to ever hear from me.

"Please Jennie,—

Let me move on.