Only one rumor was true (dixison)

I love you Charli

Addison POV

Dixie squeezes my thigh as she drive. I was silent the whole trip to Taylor's fancy house. Luckily Dixie did not push me to talk to her and simple just played music and held onto my thigh. I look over at her and everything just hits me. Last night when I told her about Mia she was understanding and held me so tight that I felt safe. I felt safe when I was with her, I always did.

I can't imagine my life without her in it. My mind wonders to Mia when she was smiling at me. We would have sleepovers nearly every weekend and build forts even when we were older. Am I replacing her with Avani?

I mean Avani is my best friend now but I can't help but think that I was replacing Mia. I let a tear fall and try stay as quiet as possible when Dixie stops at traffic light. She looks over at me and that's when I knew it was all over. She had caught me.
"Addison what's wrong?" She says taking off her sunglasses and looking at me. I shake my head and lean more away from her. She grabs my hand and squeezes it.

"It's my fault" I say and looking out the window.
"What's your fault?"
"It's my fault she died" I say and sniff.
"No Addison it was never your fault you hear me?" I close my eyes.
"It wasn't your fault that she decided to make the chose she did. I know you feel like you could of done more but life happens and you just can't. Some people just go to far for you to reach, so I don't want to hear you say that again" I look back over at her.

"I could of done something Dixie, I could of grabbed her I...I" someone honks behind us.
"Oh fuck off!" She shouts and steps on the gas. We shoot forward and I sigh. I look away from her.
"Listen to me Addison it wasn't nothing you could control, I'm so sorry that you had to see that but you can't beat yourself up about it, okay. She wouldn't want you to do that" I let out a shaky breath.
"You said that Mia was your best friend and cared for you correct?" I nod my head.

"So I'm telling you she wouldn't want you to blame this on yourself. She would want you to live your life and do things she never got too. I don't know her personal like you but the way you described her makes me feel that this is what she would want you too do" I let another tear fall.

"So please Addison...don't beat yourself up about it or say it was your fault because it wasn't and I will continue to tell you that until the day I die. I want you to be happy Addison and seeing you like this breaks my heart...I want to make you happy Addy. As long as you keep Mia in your heart and just keep going everything will work out" I look over at her and I finally realize that she is right and not only that but I have to say these words to her because I mean them so much.

"I love you" I say and she looks over at me.
"I love you so much Dixie and I mean it more than anything. I don't want anyone else in my life, from the day I saw you I knew you were someone special. People kept telling me to stay away but I never did and I'm so grateful that I didn't listen...I'm so sorry if I caused you any pain or hurt you I'm an idiot sometimes, you'll have to bare with that if you're going to be with me" she laughs softly and I could see that she was crying.

"But I've never ever loved someone like I have loved you and I know that I'll never love anyone else beside you. Look at me Dixie I'm a mess but you still love me....and you do make me happy. You make me so happy Dixie that I feel like I'm going to exploded. I'm just so scared to lose you again" she starts to cry harder as she looks at the road so that we don't crash and then back at me. We stop at a traffic light and she looks at me.

"Addison I love you too, I've always loved you since middle school" my hearts stops. What?
"What?" I say and she sighs and drives again. She doesn't say anything for a little bit until we arrive at Taylor second house. We pull up in the drive way and Dixie parks and looks at me.
"What do you mean middle school?" I say and she looks down and takes both of my hands in hers.
"Did you go to Melwood middle school?" I freeze.