The fated ones

Chapter 28

After delivering that whole speech, dong hua had pulled xaio bai up with him and they had retired for the night, leaving everyone swallowing down the threat that dijun had just swiftly placed on their life. Entering xaio bai's room, he just held her in his arms, engraving the feel of her on his heart. He had been without her for so long that separating even an inch from her felt like miles to him. It was only now that his soul could feel her warmth and rest easy with the satisfaction of having her close. For what felt like half a day, he just held her, taking her in. But he reminded himself that he had another task that he can't put off any longer. Slowly and with extreme difficulty, he pulled her face back from his chest and kissed her on the forehead.

Pouring all his love and sincerity in his eyes for her to see, he softly said, "xaio bai, forgive me please."

"what for, my love?"

"I pushed you away. I hurt you so much. You had to suffer through so much because of my stupidity. Please forgive me, my love."

Feng jiu felt the pain and sadness in his eyes when he said that. She understood the circumstances that had led him to do what he had done back then. Even though his cold rejection of her had caused her extreme pain and heartbreak, she could now see that they had come from a good place in his heart; it had all come from the love that he held for her. She might not agree with those decisions of his but even misplaced those decisions had been made out of his love and concern for her. With the hand he had been dealt, he had had a tough time traversing through the new roads of love that he had found himself on and without a sign to lead him through.

Holding his face, cradled between both her hands, she made sure he could see the truth in her eyes while she tried to put it into words for him to understand.

"donghua, you are anything but stupid. You did what you thought was right at that time. Yes it had hurt me, I won't deny that but now that I understand your reasons, I know it came from your love for me. So please don't belittle our love by calling yourself stupid. I just feel that if you had talked to me about all this instead of deciding everything by yourself, without my input, regarding something that affected both of us, we could have managed to minimize all this damage that we caused each other, unknowingly. "

"And as for pushing me away, I had forgiven you for that a long time ago. There is no need for apologies, my love. I just need you to promise me one thing. Promise me, you will not hide things from me from now on. Don't make my decisions for me, donghua, talk to me instead, let us figure it out together. You no longer need to shoulder every burden alone, I am here for you, my love, but you have to truly allow me to be there with you and not just in essence. I know communication and feelings don't come easy to you but let me help you with that, let me lead you through the ways of the heart. But for me to do that, I need to know that no matter what happens and no matter the cost, you will share all your burdens, honestly and openly with me from now on. I am no longer the weak little fox I was before, donghua. I am not just your little companion now, I am your mate, your equal. So please don't take away my right to care for you, don't put me in a bubble in order to protect me. Let me be your equal, my love. We can handle everything that comes at us, together. But for that to happen, you need to stop hiding things from me. I need honest and open communication from you, dong hua. Promise me that."

Donghua was overcome with emotions on hearing her words. She had so eloquently threaded together all his worries and traits along with a simple solution to it all. She had understood his fears and love for her, without him having to explain it. His xaio bai had seen right through him, so easily and she didn't even know that. He had felt her concern dripping heavily from each word that she spoke and understood what she was asking of him. Though, it was not that big a thing what she was asking for, but for him communication had never been necessary. He was not used to sharing his every thought and feeling but for her, he will do it. He will bare his heart and soul if it meant he could be with her forever.