Drowning ( Depressed Hinata×Kageyama)

Chapter 6

   Black. Most of us may think that black is a sad color.  A color that represents death. A color that shows us that a person is in pain. That a person is alone. Frightened. Fearful. Depressed. And many other things. But, for some of us, black is like... the light at the end of the tunnel. I know it sounds stupid. How can black become light? It is pretty simple actually. The first thing we see when we are born in darkness. I am sure you all think that you see the nurses, doctors and the mom. But that's not true. We are born with our eyes closed. So, the first thing we see is the black abyss of our minds. Before we die we close our eyes. Why? To make the pain easier to support? To not see the looks of our loved eyes as they beg us to stay? Maybe. Who knows. We will find out when the right time comes. But a thing is for sure. When we close our eyes, we see black. Even is we are at death's door or not. The conclusion? Black is not the color of death. It is the color of existence, of both death and life. That's just how it is. Or how I see it anyway. I may be wrong. All of you know that I am not that coherent right now. Because, fortunately, I am sitting in my own black abyss. And I like it.

  Hinata's pov

Pain. That's the first thing I felt as I tried opening my eyes. My head hurts. Not as much as I wished for, but I had to be grateful for what I got. Slowly I began opening my eyes. My blurry vision wasn't helping at all. After a few seconds, I adjusted to the dim light and looked around me. I was in the hotel room. I looked down.  I was wearing a T-shirt and shorts. I felt the blood leave my face. Who changed me? The cuts on my stomach aren't fresh, but anyone could have seen them if they paid attention. I felt the air stopping entering my body and I tried calming down. It worked. Black was around me. Good. I opened my eyes again and almost shouted when I noticed the team looking at me. How the hell did they get in? Suddenly, the memories returned. Where is Ennoshita? I scanned the boys and signed in relief when I realized he was there too. I did it...
Ennoshita! I am so glad you are ok! I said truly happy, giving him a smile. I avoided questioning why I fainted. I am sure I had a flashback.
He slowly approached me and embraced me. My eyes widened and my breath almost stopped.
  I wouldn't have been here without your help. You saved my life. I will be forever indebted to you. He said slowly, letting me go.
  No, no. I said laughing. Don't overthink too much. Anyone would have come for you if they saw you before me. Just remember to stay close to the other guys next time. I hit him slowly on the shoulder, feeling him relax under my touch.
  Ok. Ok. Thanks again, man. He said as he got up and joined the rest of the guys. They were staring at me. I guess something must have happened before I blacked out.
  Guys. I am not that dumb. Stop staring and tell me what is wrong. I told them with annoyance in my voice. Something flicked inside them.
   Hinata... Sugamama started. We have a few questions if you don't mind. He said expectantly. Yup, I definitely did something. Here it comes.
   Sure... You are scaring me. What's up? I narrowed my eyes in their direction.
   Who is Natsu? I heard a voice speaking before Suga could continue. I raised my head and looked at Kageyama. He was looking right into my eyes. He wanted to make sure I don't lie. Huh. Maybe I should give a try to this. To trusting. You wanna risk it again? I heard the devil me speak. Glad you back man. Well, I could always kill myself, so what is the point? Good choice.
   My sister. I said after a long silence. No, I don't feel comfortable talking about her, but if I avoid the question there will be more problems. And who wants that? No one, of course.
   When you were bringing Ennoshita-san back to life you started mumbling about her. You begged her to wake up. He continued slowly, watching closely all my reaction.
  I looked down. I felt tears trying to run down my cheeks, but I didn't let them. Not now, at least. I need to tell them the story. Well, the beginning of it.
    She died. I stated bluntly. All of them chocked with air. They looked hilarious and I would have laughed if I were in another situation. She died 5 years ago. She drowned. In front of me.
   I looked up and I was shocked. I didn't see pity in their eyes. I saw sadness, despair and...hope? Hope for what?
  Kageyama got up from the chair and approached me. I was forced to lift my head so I could look into his eyes. They were full of sadness and love. Love? I felt myself blushing and tried looking away, but I was stopped by the muscular hands that embraced me. I was sitting in his lap, with my nose in the crotch of his neck. My heart skipped a beat. Shit, I was so in love. He slowly started patting me on the back, reassuring me that he was here. That they were here. I felt something wet on my face. Then more. And more. I was crying. I raised my hands and buried myself in his chest, leaving the sobs and tears in his T-shirt.
   Everything is gonna be ok. You are not alone. I promise. He whispered in my ear before I fell asleep in his arms, feeling secure and relaxed for the first time since Natsu died.

   I am not alone? What a joke. That's what he said too. But they are different. He is different. I can feel it.
    Let's wait and see, shall we?

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Happy children's day guys! I don't care how old are ya, everyone has a child inside them. Just a chapter for today. I will try updating more this week because the next one my exams begin and I really need to pass them with 9 (or -A or over 85 points).
So, I guess I will see ya again this week.
Stay safe guys and thanks for reading