Drowning ( Depressed Hinata×Kageyama)

Chapter 17

I dedicate this chapter to everyone who has or had Covid-19 or have relatives with this virus.
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In the past people told me I am stubborn. A idiot. A liar. And a monster. Then, I would have done anything to change their opinion about me. I tried to meet their expectations. I tried to become a new person. I tried to become perfect. The perfect child, the perfect and obedient boyfriend and the sweet and caring friend. Now, I no longer give a shit about these things. The fact that no one likes me won't change if I become a new person. So I decided to remain as I am. I decided to remain a monster.

   Takeda's pov

No one. That child has no one. His family was his aunt. His aunt is dead. He lost control. He knew he is alone. He knew he is the last one to carry the memories. I don't wanna know what type of memories he has. He broke down. He crumbled right under our eyes. And we didn't notice. Well, we had our doubts. But the outcome is worse than we expected. I already know from the other children that Hinata had a little sister. I know she died in front of him. I know she drowned. His aunt had a car accident and fell over a bridge. She drowned too. What a cruel reality. But there is still one more question. What happened to his parents?

Ukai-kun? I whispered to my colleague's name. He gave me a short look before returning his attention to the road.

Yes? Are you ok? You are kinda pale. Responded to the male in a hushed tone. I looked back at the children. They were crying or looking at the window. I know they silently listen to our conversation. I don't want secrets anymore.

Anyone knows anything about Hinata's parents? I asked louder. Some of them flinched and the others gave me a questioning look. After a minute or two, everyone said no.

Why do you ask Takeda-san? You have his information in your arms. Said Ukai. I guess I should throw the bomb before we arrive at the hospital.

In his folder, the only emergency number was his aunt. They were expecting me to continue. I sighed. His aunt was our school nurse. As you already know, she died. Everyone seemed to freeze. Ukai-kun tried to stay focused on the road, but soon stopped. They all looked at me.

There is only one number. No parents or other relatives were mentioned. I finished my idea. There was a concerning silence on the bus.

Isn't it normal to mention the parents, even if they live in another town? Sugawara broke the silence. I glanced fast at Ukai before he responded.

It is. This is why we stopped. It doesn't make sense. If his parents weren't mentioned, there are only two possibilities. He looked at me for approbation. I nodded my head and let him continue. Either his parents give Hinata's custody to his aunt or they are dead. Everyone froze again in their seats.

We will ask Hinata about it when he wakes up. Let's go. I said as Ukai started the bus again and began driving. I sighed and looked out of the window. What happened to you, Hinata?

    Hinata's pov

Ok. So I know for sure I am not dead. That is a good thing I guess. Another thing I know is that I am in the hospital. I can hear the slow beating of my heart and I can feel the bandages on my arms. I know four more things. One, Kageyama is next to me and beg me to wake up. Two, the coach is on his way. Three, it is undoubtedly that he saw my folder and saw I am currently an orphan and he will surely will ask about it. And four, I will most likely need to see a therapist. I can't wait to wake up! Can you feel the sarcasm? No? Whatever.
    A good thing about this whole situation is that I don't hear the devil me anymore. I dunno if it is because of the big amount of pain relief pills I was forced to take or because I am more mentally stable now. I don't care. Better enjoy the silence while it lasts.
    Suddenly, I was hit with a huge amount of energy. Damn these pills.  I need to ask where they got them from. I guess this the step I wake up. Here comes nothing.
   I slowly open my eyes and look at the wall. White. That is why I hate hospitals. They remember me of the place I will never go. Heaven. I moved my head a little and saw Kageyama. His eyes were red and dull. His face was stained with tears. His T-shirt was bloody. His hands were on mine. Wait a second. I look again at his shirt. Why was there blood on it? Don't tell me he is the one who found me. Great. Bye-bye relationship.
  I try moving a little to gain his attention. I manage to move my hand. He suddenly flinches and looks at me. I don't know which one of us looks worse. The one on the hospital bed full of bloody bandages or the one who saved him, full of blood and tears. I began laughing a little. He looks at me as if I became crazy. Too late, darling.

I wonder which one of us looks worse. I said with a small voice. I began coughing. Kageyama gave me a glass of water. I said a small thanks.

At least you didn't see me with blood on my arms and an axe in my hand shouting at the doctors. Good thing I finished the water before he said this. I began laughing louder.

Why did you have an axe? I asked curiously. Why did you shout at the doctors?

Well, I thought that I will have to break your door down, so I came prepared. As for the doctors, your heart stopped for a few seconds and they were too shocked to move. He said that as if it was nothing. We both remained in a tensioned silence.

I am sorry. I know I should have come to you. I should have mentioned my mental health problems. I should have told you the truth. But here we are. Because of my coward ass we both suffered. I understand if you want to broke up with me. I know I am a disappointment, a failure, an idiot, a li... I was stopped by something warm touching my lips. Even thou it was a little peck, Kageyama kissed me.

Finally, you are quiet. Listen to me. The past cannot be rewritten. The mistakes cannot be undone. But I don't care. I love you too much to leave you. Of course I am upset that you didn't trust me with your problems. No. I know you trust me. You thought you were a burden, am I right? As long as you promise to confide in me next time you feel down, I will forgive you. You don't need to tell me everything right now. I don't want to make you feel pressured or anything like that. I still didn't forget you promised to tell me everything. I will wait for you, Hinata. I will wait for you to be able to open up. I will stand by your side. I won't leave you. Because I love you. Because we are invincible together. I hope you never forget that.

Shit. I knew he was awesome, but this is too much. I began crying. Kageyama didn't know if he should worry or not.

Wh-what have I done to de-deserve such an awesome boyfriend? I said between tears. He smiled widely and kissed my tears. I began laughing. I wish I could hug him, but my arms hurt like hell.

Our moment was interrupted when the door opened. An old man entered the room. From his attire, I could tell he was a doctor. I looked at Kageyama and sighed, coming back to reality.

Let the drama begun.

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I am so sorry I didn't post in such a long time.
Long story short, I and my mom were infected with Covid-19, we were hospitalized and yesterday we took another test.
As you already guessed, the tests were negative, so we came back home...
That's all I guess.
Stay safe and like my books!