Drowning ( Depressed Hinata×Kageyama)

Chapter 15

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          Kageyama's pov

 Beeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

   I think I am going crazy. Yeah. I am sure of it. There is no way my boyfriend is dead. He is just sleeping. He is taking a very long nap actually. He must have been very tired. I wish I could have cuddled with him. Or maybe I would have made him sleep earlier. That means this is my fault? No, it can't be. He just overworked himself. And he chooses to hide his problems from me. Why tho? Is it worth this suffering? It doesn't matter now. He is dead. HE IS NOT DEAD.

   I was sent back to reality by the sudden movement next to me. I looked up and saw a few doctors trying to bring Hinata back to life. Then I realized it. HE NEEDS ME!

I quickly got up and approached my boyfriend, without disturbing the doctors. I gently grabbed his hand. It is cold.

Come on Hinata! Wake up! You know we love you! You know we will always be there for you! So please, don't leave us! PLEASE!

           Hinata's pov

  It is so quiet here. I feel free. And safe. I don't wanna leave. It is black here. It is so dark. I can't see anything. Or anyone. I feel protected. I like it here. I can only see myself. I don't know how, so don't ask. I know for sure that I am dressed in white. Maybe I will become an angel? Impossible. I have too many sins. Well, whatever. There is one more thing I like about this place. I like my body. All my scars are gone. I feel like a whole new person. I feel like Hinata is gone. Wait... He is gone. He is dead. I began laughing. 

   I AM FINALLY DEAD! I shouted. I didn't fear anyone will criticize me. I am alone. This is my safe place. 

  Throb! Throb!

 Pain. Pain. Pain? Why is my head hurting? Wasn't I supposed to be dead? Why do I still feel pain? That is my fate? I will suffer even in my afterlife? It is not fair.

 Throb! Throb!

I felt in my knees as I grabbed my head. Why does it hurt so much? Please stop this pain!

Suddenly it stopped. I blinked confused. It was that easy? Something is not right.

Then, I saw it. A light. What is going on? Am I being sent back there? Stop it! I wanna stay here! ...Anyone? I closed my eyes and held them tight. After what seemed like years, I opened them again only to be meet with a too familiar place.

...what am I doing in the gym?

 (just imagine me looking at a feather from my pillow for two days trying to find inspiration)

               ~~Flashback warning~~

   I could smell the happiness in the air. I could hear the ball bounce in the distance. Why does everything seem so far away? It is because I am dead? No... This is the way I've seen things from the beginning. I never thought about making friends on the volleyball team. I just wanted to do something that could have made my sea disappear. I just wanted a place where no one would want to know me. Or befriend me. I guess I made the wrong choice. I think? Honestly, I don't know what the others thought of me. I think they were nice to me just because I jumped high. Just because I was useful to the team. Now that I think about it, I don't really mind it. I am glad someone found me useful in this life. One goal accomplished.