Drowning ( Depressed Hinata×Kageyama)

Chapter 5

Sun. That's how they call me. In their eyes, I am the sunshine boy. I am the one who can light a room only by being there. I am the one who can make everyone happy with just one smile. Just like the sun. I am shining. I can't argue with that, because I see everything from another perspective. If the sun is shining, it means it burns. The sun is burning for us. For our happiness. That means I am burning. Metaphorical speaking. Because the burning feeling from your lungs when you drown is the same as the one when you are too close to the sun. I don't know if any of you know the feeling, but I can assure you it hurts. The burning hurts you and the others. Why not only me you ask. Because everyone that gets close to the sun is burnt down. Just like me. Anyone that gets close to me suffers. Maybe worse than me.

    Kageyama's pov

   He was falling. And I am not speaking about his body. I mean his mind. 'He' is going down. I don't know why, but I feel this. I feel he is slowly distancing himself from us. From me. But if I think harder, I don't think we even know him. Until now, he was just our happy teammate with an amazing talent. We thought we knew him well. Man, how wrong we were. And we realized that we don't know anything about him after so long. Damn it, after so much time. Everything started when he had a panic attack in the gym. Oh God. None of us knew what to do. We only stayed close to him and followed his instructions. Just like some puppets. Of course, we all searched and learned how to help someone when he has a panic attack after the incident. Later, we found out about his childhood. I mean a minuscule part of it. He wasn't born here. He moved here at 13. As his best friend, I was shocked when I heard it. I only knew his grandma died. I didn't know anything about his past, his family, his whereabouts. Damn, I don't even know where he lives. I think all my teammates agree when I say that he doesn't tell us about himself on purpose. Even Tsukishima. I mean, I know everyone has secrets. But he is a little too secretive with us. This is the moment when all of us decided to find out everything about Hinata. But... We didn't have luck. After all these months, we didn't find out anything new about our sunshine. He dodges our questions with experience. Too much experience. Like he has done this before. And my instincts tell me my thoughts are true. The last sign was today. At the beach. Who would have guessed he doesn't like water? Really now. And who falls asleep at the beach? Good thing that he was under the umbrella. The day was so funny and awesome, but everything changed when we were about to leave. Ennoshita disappeared. Yes, our serious senpai disappeared. Maybe a prank? Who knew? Just then Hinata woke up and started searching for him. Who would have thought he was drowning? Who would have thought that Hinata will save him? Without knowing, he was doing CPR on the unconscious boy. He knows how to do that? Everything went on slow motion. He started mumbling. Then shouting. Then both. He was begging Enno to wake up. He didn't even notice that he was breathing.
Please wake up, Natsu... This made us look at him confused. Who is Natsu?
  But... When our eyes landed on him, we knew one thing for sure.

He is not fine.

His eyes were...lost. He was lost in memories. And I am sure, unfortunately, that they are not the best ones.
Suddenly, he got up and started stepping back. He grabbed his head with his heads and started pulling his hair. He started mumbling. That doesn't look like a panic attack.
Hinata...? Asked Yachi, trying to bring him back to reality.
SHUT UP! He shouted. We all flinched. It was clear that he didn't say that to us. Still, it was hard to see him hurting.
His arms left his head and he looked at us. The look from his eyes made me wonder. Was this boy really hurting so much? What happened to him? What happened to our sun? His eyes...were empty. So empty. No pain, no shining. Nothing. Then, he started falling down.
I quickly caught him. He was cold and wet ( I know what are you thinking.). He looked tired. I slowly get up with him in my arms. He was light. Too light.
I looked at my teammates. We all knew.

We need to save him.
We need to protect him.
We need to make him trust us.
We need to show him
Love.

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Hey guys. Author-chan speaking. This is the first chapter in Kageyama's perspective. I dunno why, but I have a feeling that it didn't turn out really well. I am very tired and stressed so, please, if you have any suggestion or you see a mistake, tell me. I will gladly look over the chapter again if that means I can make my style of writing better. See ya next chapter.