Cranks Descending

Chapter Seven

I climb down the vines out the window and make my way to the hollow tree where they put the supplies. I take off the slab of wood on top and peer inside. I wasn't expecting to see anything but I saw a bag of the Bliss, bigger than usual, and more supplies. This time there is a note in it. I pull out everything, shove it in my bag, and head back to the shed.

When I get inside, I close the door and lock it, letting a shaky breath out, sitting on the mattress.

I clench my fist in hopes to not scream out. I don't think I can do this. I'm on the verge of going crazy, there is no promises that The Bliss will work. I could turn any second. There is only one fate for me, and that is changing, no matter how hard I try, there won't be a cure. I am going to die.

I unclench my fist and stand up. I take a bottle of the nightstand next to the mattress and chuck it at the wall. I breathe heavily, watching it fall to the floor. My face is stained with hot, angry, tears. But I'm not just filled with anger, I'm filled with sadness, I'm filled with fear.

I collapse onto my bed and hold my head in my hands, just letting my emotions get the better of me. I take out a pistol from the bag and look at it. I'm tempted to shout myself, to just get this over with. I load the gun with one bullet and put it to my head.

3, 2,

What the hell am I thinking! These supply's aren't for me! It's for the kids that o need to get out. I'm such a dud, so selfish. How could I think to use their materials on myself?

I throw the gun into the bag and I hear paper ruffling.

Right, there was a note in there when I took it out of the hollowed tree.

I reach my shaking hand into the bag and grip the paper, slowly pulling it out, scared to see what it says.

I turn it over and look on the front:

From Sonya

To Astrid

Dear Astrid,

I know you won't come with us to find the safe haven, you would never put any of us in danger. I love you for that, I love that you care for others and put them before yourself, no matter the way they treat you. I inspire to be like you. I wish you would come with us, you were like a sister to me. I can't remember anything before the maze but the day Vince introduced me to you, I felt an immediate connection, like we had met before. I will never forget you and I hope that one day we will meet again my friend. I don't want to lose you but I know that I can't stop the inevitable. I know you are going to turn soon and there is no way I can stop that. I just hope that in your last moments of sanity, you remember me because I love you and I'm already devastated knowing that you will choose not to come. Remember me as I will always remember you. I love you Astrid, you were the most amazing friend I could ask for.

Love,

Sonya

I covered my mouth to muffle the sobs. I never told Sonya how much I loved her. How much I wish we were siblings. How much I wish I would never leave her. I didn't want to get attached to anyone, especially not in a way like this. She was my sister, not by blood but by our choice. It wasn't a spoken thing but we always knew that we would stick together. Now we have been torn apart by my decision. I did this to us, it's my fault that I will never see her again.

I fold the tear stained note up and tuck it back into the bag carefully. I zip that bag and sit still, staring at the floor. I feel numb. My whole body is numb. I cover my mouth again to hold in the sobs as I lay my head down on the mattress. I blink a few times to get the tears out before closing my eyes and wishing that I didn't have to wake up.

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The picture is the hollowed tree stump. 

Sorry for a sad chapter. No gonna lie, I almost cried writing this. I love y'all! 

Love, 

Annaleigh❤️