My bully

Diane's part 1

My mornings are the usual, I wake up and go to have my breakfast with mom, she's a nice cooker, well she ussually wakes up in bad mood, but today she seems nice, she said hello, good morning, talked to me and that kind of stuff.

I go out and go to school, I always take the bus because I live far away from home, but my mom said that soon we will be moving to a diferent a bigger house, she said that it is way closer to school and that I could walk to go there, not a big fan of this but I'm not a couch potato so I will walk to school if it's necessary.

My mom left my dad when I was just a baby, I don't remember it due to at that age my memory wasn't the best, I could say that if I ever crossed with him on the street I wouldn't recognize him. You might be asking "Why did you mom leave him?" simple, when I was 15 she told me that she was gay, I was totally fine with this, I accepted her how she is, I have to accept her however she is, she deserves to be happy and also she is the woman who gave me my life, I own so much to that woman.

How's my social life? I could say it's good, I always go around school by myself, I don't have many friends but I know people wants to be friends or even more than that just because of my appearance, people around there thinks I'm a beautiful girl but I just ignore them.

But there is this girl, a girl that had always my attention since we are in elementary school, I remember I tried to talk to her once but she kept staring her somewhere else with a blush in her face, she was mumbling a lot and talking nonsense, she was a total weirdo with me at that time, I remember telling her that and leaving, and since then I've been bullying her until now. Honestly it's kinda fun when I'm doing it but when she leaves or runs away I feel kinda bad for her. She's been studying in the same school as me since that time and now we started last year of high school together, even thought we are not in the same class we still going to the same school as I said before.

I don't know, but this girl always had my attention, and since the years passed she have been growing up, because of this she is a pretty good looking girl now, but for some reason she doesn't have a single friend since that time that we were childs.

I know that she avoids everyone and in lunchtime she goes to the back of the football field of the school to eat alone. I want to go there and mess with her a little bit, but it is her safe spot in school, I know I bully her but she needs some rest, otherwise she would feel that she is harassed by me and that she is not safe anywhere in school. I know that some people have moved or even killed themselves because of bullying, that's why I don't exceed myself, because the idea of her leaving makes me feel kinda weird, it's like if I wanted her to stay.

In other words I'm pretty interested in the existance of that girl, and without her I think I would get bored at school

but I didn't imagine at any moment that I could start liking that girl

My name is Diane, I'm 17 and I think I like the person I bully.