"One more practice and we're off to go." coach said while we went back to our original places
We're here in the open gym and doing our practice. It's 5:30 pm and our coach will dismissed us after this last practice since he knows almost all of us here will be joining Paolo's party later, buti nalang at nagpaalam si Paolo and good thing pumayag si Coach.
"Vanessa punta ka mamaya sa party ni Paolo?" Bea asked
Nandito kame sa locker room and I'm arranging my things nang biglang sumulpot tong si Bea sa tabi ko.
I shrugged my shoulders. Well I'm actually going but I don't feel like na sabihin sa lahat. I mean I want them to be a bit surprise later to see me. Okay fine, honestly the real reason is wala akong gana ngayon. I don't know what happening to me but I'm never like this. Pag may party, I always go pero ngayon seems different. I couldn't feel the excitement of going that party anymore.
Nagdadalawang isip ako kung pupunta ba ako o hindi and I don't want to tell to Bea what I really feel cause I know she'll throw nonstop questions.
"I don't know." saad ko habang sinarado na ang duffel bag ko.
"Really? It means you're thinking not to go? Am I right?" sunod niya saakin while I went out from the locker area
"Why does it even matter if I'll go or not?" utas ko at humarap sakanya
I know I sounded so mean but right now, I couldn't care less. I'm not really in the mood this whole day and I don't know what's fucking wrong with me.
Halos napaatras si Bea at ilang beses na kumurap habang nakatingin saakin and then she smiled, an awkward one.
"Oh yeah, I'm sorry." saad niya and before I could even say sorry, she already left.
Just great! So great. Why am I so good in offending other people? Kahapon si Braden and next si Bea. Just great, V. Keep it up until one day you'll left alone.
I immediately stand up when I saw our car approaching. I'm here in the parking lot and just waiting for someone to pick me up. Yes someone cause I don't know if it will be Braden or Mang Tinoy or whatever.
Kanina kasinv umaga, I was you know a bit expecting Braden will still drop me here sa school despite of what happened yesterday. I thought even if mag away kame, ihahatid niya pa rin ako since Mom told him to do so right? But I was wrong cause it's Mang Tinoy who dropped me here sa school kanina.
I don't know why It matters and that why it suddenly affects my mood. I won't deny that it's probably the reason why I'm such in a bad mood today and I don't feel like going to the party.
Do I need to apologize? Or what?
But why would I? I mean, wala naman akong nagawang mali. Or maybe meron but I just don't know what.
The car stopped in front of me agad kong inabangan kung sino ang baba but I ended up being disappointed when I saw it's Manong Tinoy.
Why am I even disappointed? What the hell!
"Sakay na po Mam." Manong said and opened the backseat
I hopped in at agad na nagkrus ng dalawang braso. I don't know but I feel so irritated!
"Where's Braden Manong?" di matiis na tanong ko
I've been dying to ask that question since this morning but my pride always eats me up. Ayaw ko nga magtanong baka ano pa isipan nila or worst malaman pa ni Braden at baka magfeeling pa siya.
But now, I'm not letting my pride stop me from asking that question. I've had enough. Di ko alam kung anong drama ni Braden. If I upset him or maybe offended him in any way that I didn't know, he could have told me so I would apologize.
BINABASA MO ANG
Unswerving Desire [ON-GOING]
RomanceVanessa used to trust and depend no one but herself only until Braden came into her life and change her perspective.