In kindergarten my "friends" ditched me
I'm last picked... for anything and everything
I sit alone at lunch
I can't break my streak of anxiety, making it even worse
I try to hide
I try to run away from people
It works.
I try to be social
I try to be liked
I try to be kind, sweet, and loving
They all avoid me more.
Throughout school, my only friends were the teachers
I was a good student
Because I was the only quiet one
Now, in 8th grade,
Popularity is everything
Some girls started a rumor I was racist
I was the only white kid
My friends left me
I was alone and hated
I tried to stop
To stop being sad
I tried to fake it
And be "cool"
I hated it
Makeup, cursing, and covering up my personality
It was only for a day
Then I became invisible again.