Zach
I didnt do anything wrong right?
Right?
Wrong.
I fucked up. Not because I was straight and totally not because I didnt kiss Alex back.
I'll admit, I panicked. Getting kissed by a guy was never a part of my bucket list before I graduate High school. Getting kissed by my guy best friend was also not a part of it.
I ticked off both of those faster than I lost my virginity.
I love Alex and I would take a bullet for him. But I never really see myself being with a guy romantically.
So I did what every sane guy would do. I panicked. I didnt went home after I dropped Alex at his place. I called Chloe, I didnt tell her what happened. I just told her that I needed to see her. I slept with her. It was a good night because I forgot about Alex Standall and his shitty feelings for me.
Was I disgusted? I dont know. But I could never hate Alex.
I wanted to get Alex off of my mind not because Im inlove with him but because Im not. Because I know he's hurting and I couldnt do anything about it.
But waking up beside Chloe didnt feel wonderful. We didnt drink any alcohol last night but I was greeted by a shitty headache. I felt a pang of pain strike my left temple.
I stood up. Chloe was still sleeping, wearing nothing but a blanket covering her bare body. She transfered school after everything that happened last school year but we decided to continue seeing each other.
Do I love Chloe? I think so. Do I see myself marrying her someday? Im not so sure. All I know is that I like seeing her and I do enjoy sleeping with her.
I didnt want to wake her up so I just sent her a text message that I need to go home and take a shower.
First day of school as a senior. Why am I suddenly nervous? I practically own the whole campus now. Everyone knows me at this point, I may not be the quarterback but I am an integral part of the football team. Why the fuck am I nervous?
Alex Standall. Ofcourse.
I told him I could never hate him which is true but Im starting to overthink how I would act around him. Should I change and respect his walls? Or should I act as if nothing happened and still be his best friend?
Thank God I dont have any classes with Alex today so the only time I would see him is during breaks and after school. I dont want to avoid him but Im still thinking on how to act around him.
I always drive Alex home but that means we would be alone in my car.
Fuck that.
Alex is my best friend I shouldnt be thinking too much about this.
Face it. I thought to myself.
I headed for my locker which is a few lockers away from Alex's locker. Usually Alex would be here, waiting for me, we would chat for a bit and walk to our classrooms. But today was not an ordinary day. Something happened last night. Something that maybe I didnt handle that well.

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FanfictionAlex Standall has been crushing on his best friend, Zach Dempsey, for almost a year. Things changed when he accidentally confessed his feelings through a one sided kiss. Main characters: Alex Standall Zach Dempsey Charlie St. George Winston Williams