His Lightning Rod

Chapter 13

I was getting ready for Aiden's funeral I was at mine and Barry's apartment. I wasn't ready for this day to come. I didn't think it would be this soon. He was only 29. He had a whole life ahead of him and it was ripped away by that damn fire.

I never got to tell him I was Reflex. I was gonna tell him after I dealt with Snart. I never got that change though. The fire ripped away the only family I hold dear in my heart.

Aiden has been here for me my whole life and I don't know what to do anymore. I am so confused, depressed and angry. Cisco doesn't recognize me anymore. Barry try's to help me but I just push him away. But he lost his mother years who so he should be able to help me but I don't want help I want a friend. I need a friend. Once I am done I go and walk to the cemetery for his bury ceremony or whatever.

I was at Aiden's funeral he died because Caitlyn and Barry couldn't make his heart beat again. I was wearing a long black dress with black heels. My makeup was smudged across my face I could care less right now. I am looking at his body in the coffin. A set of new tears came to my eyes.

He was pale, too pale, his eyes were closed at least. around his eyes were purple circles. My hands were shaking. His hands were clasped together and he looked so peaceful. Everyone I know and love is here. My mom is still in her coma but she is doing better. Barry had his hands around my waist hugging me while I cried and sobbed.

We were outside. I crouched down "Why did you have to leave me Aiden? I have no other family mom hasn't woken up and my father disowned us." I whispered in his ear. I sit down in the front row with Barry on my left and Cisco on my right. Caitlyn is next to Cisco and next to Barry is Joe then Iris. "Would anyone like to give a speech?" I stood up quickly.

I walked in front of the casket. "My brother Aiden was a kind man. He was young, and handsome, but he didn't let that rule him. No he had a huge heart he could have any girl he wanted, but most of them just wanted him because of his look. He didn't deserve that, and he didn't deserve this. When we were little he would protect me from any guy that showed interest in me because he didn't want what happened to him happen to me. He had a big ego but he didn't let that rule him, he let his heart rule over him and I respect that. He wanted me to pursue my dream. Which is to find a great guy, have my dream house and to have a loving, kind family. I won't let anyone or thing stop that. When I was a little kid I have always wanted kids and Aiden was my idol growing up I promised him that when and if I have a boy I would name him after Aiden. He was the best big brother a girl could ask for. He was to young to pass on, he had a whole life a head of him and it was token away from him and I am so sorry for what happened to him, I forever and always will love you Aiden Smith." I set a red rose on his casket.

I walked to Barry with tears streaming down my face. Barry held me while Cisco rubbed my back. More people gave a speech about how great of a guy he was. I cried so much that day. Barry was the last one who made a speech. "I didn't know Aiden well but of the time I had with him I could see that he was a great guy. I am so sorry for what happened to him, I wish he wasn't gone. But I will always remember the few times I was with him." He walked over to me and I smiled sadly.

I was the last one to leave. I told everyone that I wanted to be alone. I watched as his casket was lowered into the whole in the ground. I couldn't believe he was gone. He was the only family I had. I was upset that my mother wasn't here either. it will break her heart when I have to tell her the news.

I threw some dirt on his coffin. No one else was around. I screamed as loud as I could. I fell to my knees sobbing and crying. I didn't care how long I was there I just was so depressed and sad. I was on my knees, my elbows on my knee caps with my head in my hands. I grabbed my phone.

Hello? Barry's voice rang since it was on speaker.

"Barry I need you now." I said and hung up I threw my phone at a tree and it shattered. After 5 minutes Barry was next to me. He sat down and sat me on his lap. I turned my face in his chest. "Shhh, shhhh." He said rocking me.

"H-He's g-g-gone f-for -ever." He ran his fingers through my hair while I cried, screamed,  and sobbed. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I couldnt save him Arabella." I wrapped my arms around his neck. I looked at the spot where Aiden was buried. "Its n-not y-your f-fault." I sniffled. "Try to calm down Arabella. I have you. Shhh." He said trying to reassure me.

"Arabella wake up......"

"Wake up Arabella your safe."

"Come on Arabella Aiden is awake he needs you so wake up!!!"

I gasp and sit up quickly I have a cold sweat all over my body. My hair is sticking to my neck. I was breathing hard. My face was puffy and red. My nose was stuffed. I looked around and saw Barry I had my head on his lap. "Thank god your Ok. I have been trying to wake you up for half an hour. You were crying, screaming and sobbing what were you dreaming of?" I broke down crying he hugged me tightly. After an hour I was finally calm

Then I told him every little detail of my dream. "Ok go take a shower and I will run us to STAR labs he is fine and stable." I nod and tun ti the bathroom. I take a quick shower and change into one of his shirts and some cotton shorts. I put on some Nike slides and put my damp hair in a messy ponytail. My face wasn't as red and puffy. I wall out and get in Barry's arms he tuns out and stops on the Cortex. I get down and run to Aiden's bed.

I sighed when I heard he had a steady heartbeat. I heard Barry tell everyone why I wa where so late. I kissed Aiden's forehead. "I love you buddy." I whisper in his ear. I walk out and Cisco gave me a hug. Caitlyn gave me a hug next. Dr. Wells wasn't in sight. Joe was sleeping at his house. "Barry il tired" I said yawning. He picked me up and ran to his house.

Once.we got there I went straight for the bedroom. I took my hair out, took my shoes off and covered up. Within seconds I was asleep.